TiaTia
06-12-2004, 12:05 PM
I'm Pregnant!!! Most exciting thing in my entire life, especially since all the doctors said it couldn't happen. But, I have been so freakin' sick. All day nausea and vomiting, and my IC has just gotten worse, which I didn't think was possible. I was scheduled for a Hydro right when I found out I was pregnant, so we had to postpone. I also have a gallstone that is making me even more sick, and can hurt like a b----, so things are rough right now.
Another issue: my OB/High Risk Maternal/Fetal specialist wants me to stay on Percocet for pain throughout my pregnancy. He says it is perfectly safe for the baby, but it bothers me a lot. Grosses me out to think about taking something like that throughout my whole pregnancy. What if the baby is born addicted? He said that the baby will "just" be a little sleepy because I am not on a large dose of super-powerful narcotics, but the thought of making my baby be born addicted to anything makes me feel like a terrible person, terrrible mother, etc. It makes me feel...I don't know. Just...bad. Disappointed, I guess. I always wanted to do everything perfectly if I was ever blessed with a baby, and this makes me feel like a screw-up. Like I am not tough enough. Like if I were a better person I would be able to tough it out, you know?
Anyway...I'm cure there are people out there who can relate. I really could use some feedback on all of this right now. I did manage to quit smoking within four days of finding out (I have quit now for 11 days), and I have smoked for 23 years. So that is one thing that I am proud of. Hope everyone is doing well. Take care, and thanks for listening...
Cristina :flower:
Another issue: my OB/High Risk Maternal/Fetal specialist wants me to stay on Percocet for pain throughout my pregnancy. He says it is perfectly safe for the baby, but it bothers me a lot. Grosses me out to think about taking something like that throughout my whole pregnancy. What if the baby is born addicted? He said that the baby will "just" be a little sleepy because I am not on a large dose of super-powerful narcotics, but the thought of making my baby be born addicted to anything makes me feel like a terrible person, terrrible mother, etc. It makes me feel...I don't know. Just...bad. Disappointed, I guess. I always wanted to do everything perfectly if I was ever blessed with a baby, and this makes me feel like a screw-up. Like I am not tough enough. Like if I were a better person I would be able to tough it out, you know?
Anyway...I'm cure there are people out there who can relate. I really could use some feedback on all of this right now. I did manage to quit smoking within four days of finding out (I have quit now for 11 days), and I have smoked for 23 years. So that is one thing that I am proud of. Hope everyone is doing well. Take care, and thanks for listening...
Cristina :flower: