I'm very bummed

[MakinIT]

I had my trial implant yesterday. He went through the space between my sacrum and tailbone. (Yes, I am lying with an ice pack under my toosh.) after 2 1/2 hours of he and the medtronics rep playing with the leads and zapping and zinging, it didn't provide the relief it needed to. See, when they fiddled with it and got in one place, it immediatlely calmed down my lower back. They fiddled some more, got my vagina to calm down and zapped the uh, clitoris...(Had to ask them for a cigarrete after...JUST KIDDING). but when they moved the electrodes to where I could feel tingling in my belly, it caused me to go into a muscular spasm in my whole body...It was like i was forced to go into a backbend, but I was laying on my belly..I'd flip sideways and contract and they would all freak out. Afterwards, the doc told me that my motor and pain nerves are now intertwined. They cant stimulate one without the other. My nerves are like a big spider web in my belly. So, he just added another fun drug to my already impressive collection..(I now take 9 prescrit pills, 8 of which make me sedated. 1 is PRN. 1 is only hormones. ) So, there is my life. there are days I'm so tired my eyes cross as I try to write, or I see double even though they are not crossed. How the hell am I going tomake it through school full time? crap. I took my daughter to her school for a field trip to the beach and 5:00 AM Went back to bed at 7:00, and slept until 2:30. Geez...If I at least had something cool to say like " man, rough night, out partying" but no, I'm just pooped.

Thanks for listening to my rant. At least I'm not crying about it now. The nurse called to see ho w I wa s feeling today and I told her to tell the doc that beating my ass with a ball ping hammer was not very nice.

Take care:

Tracey

[ICNDonna]

Is this supposed to be a transient thing tht will be better in a few days? If not, my suggestion would have to be to see a neurologist.

It really sounds awful.

Warm healing thoughts,
Donna