ibtracy
05-21-2004, 07:31 AM
Hi. I'm so down today. I have been doing so good at work as far as not missing any time and I had to call in sick today and use some vacation time. I am in immense pain today an on a scale of 1-10 it's rated at about 15. I called my new uro in Omaha and he called in an emergency flare kit. It consists of an antibiotic, bladder numbing meds and Darvocet. I'm not sure that the Darvocet will even cut this but am willing to try. My body has become conditioned to the Oxycodone and Lortab because I've taken it for so long so maybe the change to Darvocet will help. I'd really like a shot of morpheine or demerol right now but that' s obviously not an option. I hate days like this, I'm down have had it up to here with IC and would just like to pack a bag and run away. Problem is I wouldn't get very far in the condition I'm in. It just doesn't seem like I'm getting any support from work - they keep saying over and over that I need to be there everyday during the hours of bla bla bla bla. It's so annoying. I've been in pain since Tuesday but today is the worst. I need to lay down but have a hard time relaxing because I know the wrath that I will have to face on Monday when I return to work and my husband has flipped back into his non-understanding mode with me again. So come 5 o'clock he'll be ****** off at me too. Isn't life just grand? I offered to entertain at my house for 10 people rather than go out for supper last night thinking that my husband could grill and I could lay in my lounge chair and relax - well it didn't turn out like that and as the night progressed my pain increased and was up most of the night whining b/c of the pain. I have to be strong and not let IC get the best of me but today I'm just not up to that way of thinking. It just sucks plain and simple. I just need some lovin and someone to take care of me for a change, is that so much to ask?:confused: