I Hate Me!!!!

[Holiday]

HELLO TO EVERYONE,
i'MSO SICK OF NOT BEING ABLE TO EAT WHAT I REALLY LOVE. SO LAST WEEK I WENT TO WHOLE FOODS AND BOUGHT A BANANA CREAM PIE AND CHOCOLATE MILK. ( I WAS FINALLY IN HEVEN) AT LEAST FOR THE TIME BEING. WHILE WALKING AROUND, I SPOTTED A TABLE WITH CHIPS AND SALSA. THE BESTFOOD ON THE PLANET. i STOOD THERE AND HAD LUNCH. AFTER LUNCH I WENT BACK TO THE HELL WHOLE THAT I SLAVE FOR AND FINISHED THE PIE AND CHO. MILK. I ATE LIKE A PIG. I DONT KNOW WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME BUT I KEEP EATING ALL THE FOODS IM NOT SUPPOS TO. AND NOW IM PAYING BIG TIME FOR IT. IMIN SO MUCH PAIN. WHY DID I DO SOMETHING SO STUPID IS BEOND ME. IMVERY STRICT WITH WHAT I EAT BEC NONE OF THE DR. I GO TO WIL GIVE ME ANY THING FOR THE PAIN IM IN. MY URO, GYBO OR GP WILL GIVE ME ANYTHING FOR THE PAIN. MY URO WANTS ME TO GO THROUGH THAT OH SO LOVELY DMSO TREATMENTS. IM TALKING ABOUT PAIN. DMSO BURNS LIKE HELL. DONT GET ME WRONG,IT DOES HELP BUT IT HURTS. AND IF I DO GET THE TREATMENST ITS ONCE A WEEK FOR 6 WEEKS THAT MEANS I HAVE TO TAKE A DAY OFF FROM WORK FOR 6 WEEKS.LIKE ANYONE CAN AFFORD TO DO THAT. I JUST CANT BELIEVE THAT 'WE' KNOW MORE ABOUT TERRIBLE DEMON THAT ALL OF US HAVE THAN ANY DR. ON THE PLANET. I JUST WISH EVERY URO HAD IC SO THEY "WILL" KNOW WHAT PAIN REALLY IS.

HOLIDAY

[kelly McC]

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Sorry your in pain. Hope your feeling better. Can you ask to see a pain doctor. You should not have to be in pain. The diet is hard but it has helped me. The hardest is watching the family eat whatever they want. I just tell my self and imagine it flaming my bladder. Best wishes and take care,
Kelly

[sleepyangel30]

I'm sorry that you are in such pain, I really do know what you mean. Well take care I hope you get well soon.

[kadi]

Yeah, I had a potato with sour cream kick my behind once. :toilet:

Several memories like that keep me in line with the diet.

We've all gotten fed up with the diet at some point and eaten a no-no or a bunch of no-nos! :headbang:

Look for favorite foods that are okay. I make pancakes for dinner (with real maple syrup & butter) when I'm really down about the diet....

Be kind to yourself. Hope you feel better soon!!! :kissing:

[Holiday]

THANK YOU EVERY ONE FOR BEIND SO SUPPORTIVE. iM SO HAPPY I HAVE FRIEND WHO ARE SO CARING. i JUST WISH MY FAMILY WERE LIKE YOU GUYS.

THANKS AGAIN,

HOLIDAY

KARI,
PAN CAKES ARE MY FAV. FOOD

[blue]

I understand, just recently I went on a binge! I hope you are feeling better soon!

[ICNDonna]

It might be a good idea for you to see a counselor. I know it's very tempting to eat things that are a problem, but if you do it often, it could be time you talk to someone to help you work through your feelings about diet and IC.

Sending warm encouraging hugs,
Donna

[Katrina]

:kiss: :kiss: :kiss:
I am very sorry you are in so much pain.
I know this diet sucks big time.....and you are right...one day off of work a week to do DMSO....how could someone afford that??? but I do believe that in time the treatment gets a lot easier. Donna usually has great advise and I do think you should consider it.

Hopefully you can find a way to get things under control. We are here for you.

Best Wishes

[SheriG]

First of all, I am so sorry that you are in so much pain. Please have one of your docs ,.refer you to a pain clinic. NOONE should have to endure the kind of pain that IC brings. As for the binge...I think we have all done that at one time or another...it is our was of being in control....even if it hurts us in the end. Have you ever tried Prelief? I find that if I want something I know will bother me, I take a couple of those, and they really do help. All the best to you!:kiss: Sheri G

[Kathi]

You did it cuz you're human. Every once in a while I think we all need to foget IC & just binge & to heck with the consequences. It too shall pass. I wish you had a doc that would at least give you some pain pills. Meanwhile don't beat yourself up.
Gentle hugs, Kathi:kiss:

[crystilclear]

I feel your frustration. I have real sucky doc to who doesn't perscribe me pain pills. It's good to let out your feelings. I mess up sometimes... :D Like yesturday we went to an Italian resturant called Bocca's. Yah when I go bad I go bad. You order big family size portions and you nibble off of them. There is really nothing suitible to eat there. And I hate feeling like a big drag on everyone. So I ate all the bad stuff like spicy sausage, onions, and peppers, ceasr salad, soda, pizza, tortilini, chicken marsala, veal parmesana. It was awesome. And it kept me up a lot last night ouch! You're definetely not alone. Hang in there. ANd it's ok to vent here. These ladies really understand becasuse we've all been there and done that! Take care - Chris

[gypsyjoy]

Girl, What can I say ..........we will talk soon.
Joy

[Holiday]

Awww you guys! thanks so much I feel so much better. I do love to eat all the bad "stuff" and I mean BAD. Im craving my banana cream pie and chocolate milk. But, i was a good girl and didn't get it. So hopefully I will be pain free tomorrow. RIGHT! Anyway I just wanted to say thank you to everyone for being such understanding friends.
Holiday

[sing_to_you]

Not good When your feeling down, I know that feeling all to well and I hate it too please cheer up
sing_to_you:kiss: :hi:

[iwant2help2]

It's somewhat typical and obscene that you cannot get pain medications from those doctors - it's pretty much the same where I live.

After 15 years the best advice I can think of is to GET A REFERRAL TO A LEGITIMATE PAIN PHYSICIAN OR PAIN CLINIC A.S.A.P.

It is their job to help those who suffer from chronic pain illnesses such as IC. Good luck, prayer for you