Jumping feet first !

[JessicainArkans]

I have an appointment to talk to Social Security on May 14 2004, I have gotten all of the info they need set aside for now until they call and I can give it to them.
I really hate this option, I wish I felt better and could work, it just seems so impossible when all I do is shudder in pain, lock myself up into the house, and get a little pityful I might add!
It has been almost 3 years since I have worked at all, I really want to go to school and go into the Mortuary Sciences, have my own Funeral Home someday and be able to take on things like others without ailments do, without thinking, effertlessly completeing tasks, being wothwhile and a contribution to society to my family and really just my plane ole' self.
I am only 29 but I feel time is going so fast, I am co in charge of my 15th Highschool reunion and I so want to be able to say , "Well yes, I do work, I am a Mortician". I have dreamt of it for so long, I believe it is the path that is best chosen for my personality, I care, I have been through hell with my husband being burned, I have effectivly delbt with this horrible IC and now I just want a clear break form it all, to move on and make something of my like.
I applied for my husbands SS and he got it without any complications, I too hope this will be the same for me, I hope it will be accepted then I can move forward from there. It seems like so much of my life is up in the air right now because of this desicion to apply for the SS, I will wait, go through the tremendous amounts of paperwork and pray that they can help me. I am sinking rapidly here, and I cannot even help myself because I feel so crappy 85% of the time!!
Keep me in your prayers if you would, I need a second chance.
I am grateful for all my IC family
:love:
Thank you for all your concern and listening to my ramblings:loco:

JessicainArkansas

[gypsyjoy]

I wouldn't worry about rambling at all...I think we all need to do it now and then.
I am in much the same shape that you are in, I would really love to go back to work but it isn't going to happen and I too have had to apply for S.S. I have my phone interview on the 25th of this month.
Good luck with yours and I will be praying.

JOY:kiss: and a cyberhug

[codyryonwoodward]

Jessica - Best of LUCK!!! I am working on my appeal. I haven't worked in almost 3 years to. I applied in Nov of 2002 turned down in July of 2003 and sent my appleal work ASAP. I also got a lawyer LOT of help he is..LOL. My turned down reason had a lot to do with the last SS doctor I had to see. He was an internist. Knew nothing of IC. My turned down reason was...Although I have weight problems my weight had stablized with the use of medicine and although I had depression and anixity I was able to function...Nothing was said about my IC..and I have no idea where the weight thing came from I dont have a problem with that and I have never took medicine for it. Funny huh. I knew when I left his office I would be turned down and sure enough 5 days later my denial letter came.

Hopefully I will find out about my appeals case this month sometimes. But best of luck because sometimes it can be a long process. Anyways it is in Louisiana

Patricia

[kelly McC]

Jessica,
Best of luck !!! I will keep you in my prayers.:pray:
Kelly

[LauraLynn]

Hi Jessica!!

I wish you luck and will say a pray for you. Sounds like you have been through a lot!!! Be strong and let us know how things go!! I will let you know how my surgery goes on Monday. Can't wait to get it over with. I feel so much better after educating myself and just talking with people on this site. It is just amazing!!!!!:pray:

[Iris]

Hi Jessica, wishing you lots of luck with your social security disability. You have been through a lot, and still dealing with everything. I know it must be doubly hard, wanting to work and know what you want out of life. Hope that a few prayers coming your way might help out. Please let us know how things are going for you, and hope that you know that we are rooting for you with your hearing. Hugs and love Iris.:hi: :kiss: :grouphug: :flower:

[JessicainArkans]

You have all been so nice and wonderful, thank you so much for the kind words of encuragement, I cannot tell you in words how much all of you mean to me. Sounds so funny having love for people I have yet to meet. Your intentions are so pure and I am grateful for all of you!!
Here's rooting for all of you too, may things go as you plan, may your health be better in the days to come and may all your hopes and dreams come true!
Much love,
Jessica Day

[felineperson3]

Jessica,

:pray: Prayers and hopefully a lot of luck on it's way to you--:)

Hugs & blessings to you--:cat:

[sleepyangel30]

I know exactly how you feel, I feel like a prisoner of my own home because of this stupid disease. Anyway, I'll pray that you will get your ssi soon, It taken me yrs to get ssi, I didn't have IC then.

[Teri]

Jessica~I think that most of us who are collecting SS would rather be working. Being ties to you home sucks:(

Make sure and take notes before and after your phone interview, don't trust your memory. Turn this into a mission. That's what I had to do and it helped me get thru it. I needed that validation soooooooooo bad that I would have fought till the bitter end if I had to.......

PLEASE, remember to save copies of EVERYTHING you send to them, and I do mean everything cuz they are real good at saying "but you didn't send it in" And, talk to your dr's and ask them to write letter for you telling what your life is like with this stinkin' disease........

Wishing you the best:pray:

[JessicainArkans]

Dear Teri and friends,

Thank you so much for your input. Teri, I definatly will have copies of everything, since my hubby is on SS disability I know all the ins and outs of the rigoramoral that they put you through, it is worse than jumping through fire hoops!! I think I can handle it but it is a lot harder being on the other side of this and wanting to be the payee ( or one provided benifits).
I was told by my hubbys Social Worker and Burn Doc's that he would not qualify for SS disability and they knew his history better than anyone else and where very empathetic to his case, I really see now that they just wanted him to get the best care possible inside the hosptal and through outpatient physical therapy so he could live a semi- normal life. They just did not want him to lay down and give up.
This is not my intention either, I will not let this thing beat me, I have had enough and call quitsies!!!!
The process of David's ( my hubby) disability was very evident and clear, he got through without any problem, I am so scared that they will see me and another "bad back" case & send me on the way. All I have is hope now and the support of many friends like all of you!!
God bless you all!!
Much love,
Jessica
JessicainArkansas:angel: