Anxious about brain MRI

[glassd18]

I have anxiety disorder. I have had it since I was in my teens. Recently I went for an MRI because I was having some numbness on my left side with muscle weakness. I do have myofascial pain syndrome (I think it's Fibro) so it could be why it's happening too, but my MRI said there were some small abnormal foci (focus points) which had a non-specific origin, and so of course I'm even more anxious now...sigh... My doctor telephoned me at home because I was freaking out when I was talking to her assistant because I was scared. Anyhow I have a neurology appointment on June 21st at 1:00pm so I can't wait to get this over with so that I can stop thinking about it. I'm actually not doing too bad, but ever now and again my thoughts go the worst places. My blood tests were all normal except that my B12 and iron were on the low side of normal which to me means I should probably be supplementing a vitamin. Does anyone here know an IC friendly iron and B12 supplement or just B12. Thanks a bunch!!! Hope you are all having a nice Spring so far.

[sissygirl]

I am on the anxious side too and I hate the uncertainty of waiting for test results etc....Radiologists are trained to note absolutely everything the slightest bit out of the ordinary even if ends up not being that significant..Where they are letting you wait three weeks they must not find it urgent but you could call and see if they have any cancellations so you dont have to hang in limbo as long.

Sorry I dont know about supplements..hope you get some good advice here.

[ICNDonna]

I absolutely know how you are feeling. I had a very scary time before my neck problem was diagnosed. I hope you get some answers quickly.

:grouphug:
Donna

[glassd18]

Thanks Donna and Sissygirl. My MD did say I should be seen ASAP, but that just means as soon as they can. I think she would have put urgently, and they would have rushed me in if they thought is was of extreme urgency. I'm holding on to that mind set. My FIL (who I work for, and who usuallly never talks to me) came to my office yesterday, and gave me some Vit B supps, but I can't take them. They are sublingual with mannitol sucralose, artificial cherry flavor, etc, etc... I said thank you, and left it at that. This man treats me like garbage 99.9% of the time, and when my Dad died they were all nice for about a week, but then went back to usual, and now this. I will never feel it's genuine even though it is thoughtful. I appreciate it, but I can't help feeling that way. We've been having such a stressful terrible time at work because of him, and that's probably where most of my anxiety is coming from. That and it causes stress at home with my husband. we had a terrible argument a couple of weeks ago. So hard to work for inlaws, and keep your relationship in tact...sigh... Not to mention it's not good for my IC either. I'm so dizzy too lately. I'm hoping it's all just my anxiety because at least I can try to deal with that. Thanks for lending your ears!!! ((hugs))

[KarenAnne]

Gosh, maybe it would be worth it to get another job. The stress can not be good for your anxiety & IC. I hope everything goes ok with your dr. appt. & it turns out to be nothing. Keep us posted.

[glassd18]

Thank you KarenAnne. I would love to get another job, but I'm afraid to look with my IC, and, of course, they are not that plentiful right now. I have thought of alternative jobs like starting my own accounting company or dog sitting company. With my doctor appointments and inconsistant symptoms I would be afraid that I'd have trouble finding and keeping work elsewhere. I am working on that though. The one perk to this job is that my hours can be fairly flexible if need be. I'm trying to figure out ways to manage my anxiety better. I hope my appointment turns out to be nothing too. I've been so dizzy lately, but I'm thinking it might be barometric pressure changes. We've had so many low and high fronts coming through here lately.

BTW I gave my FIL back his B12 today, and just said thank you, but that I can't tolerate them with my IC. He uses them so I thought it was the right thing to do. They did look at me like I had three heads, but nobody around me except my husband and a few friends understands this disease and diet anyway, and they don't try to either...sigh.. I will keep you posted. I wish my appointment was sooner, but they don't seem to be worried about making it sooner so I'm still thinking that's a good thing.

[maryla]

Glassd,

All I have to say is you need a metal. I could not imagine working fro my mean and cruel MIL.

I have seen that women do some mighty cruel things to some of the other inlaws, that were just down right premeditated and mean and cruel.

This is both my husbands and I 2nd marriage so I never got to meet his father. I do believe my husband had to have inherited his father's genes of being a kind and caring man, he sure is nothing like her.

It use to upset me that we are basically left out of many of their functions. However, we had a cookout one time and of course my MIL created a crisis and was dramatic. After that I'm very grateful we don't get invited.

Getting to your brain lesions, my neuro says that once you reach a certain age that they are pretty common. She said basically at that time I had enough to deal with (bladder) and even if I did have MS she didn't see me in a wheelchair anytime soon. That was several years ago. I guess one of these days I will need further testing.

But do a lot of deep breathing and stay in to today. I know it sounds easy? But focus on taking it easy on you. No matter what the IL do.

Many hugs and blessings

[glassd18]

Thanks Maryla!! My inlaws do a lot of things that are not thoughtful. They throw a B Day party for my husband every year and never ask me ahead of time if I might have something planned, and it hurts to not be respected. They aren't very considerate toward me. I do want to move away from them eventually, and my husband and I are looking into working elsewhere eventually. We need to break away from the cord...lol I'm taking Donna's advice on that one for next year. Plan way ahead of time and let them know we will not be attending. It's like I'm not married to him. This has all put a toll on our marriage, and sometimes I wonder if it wouldn't be better for us to go our own way. My husband is not very attentive, and it's taking a toll. He used to take on every volunteer position, and also training for marathons all the time, and then he decided to get his MBA, and is almost finished. We have faucets that need to be fixed, painting to be done, etc, etc, etc. It looks like if I don't do it myself it's never going to happen, and I just get more resentful all of the time. We have definitely drifted apart sad to say, and I'm not sure if anything will change as I've made my desires known often. I don't see any point in staying in a marriage that's not fulfilling both of us. I can't do as much as I used to do because of IC so that has taken it's toll as well. Oh well maybe I'd be happier alone with my dogs and cats. Thanks for letting me vent...

[glassd18]

Update: Hi everyone. I had my neurology appointment, but of course she wants to send me for more testing. She wants me to go for a lumbar pucture, and an CT angiogram. In the meantime a lot of my symptoms have reduced significantly. I postponed the extra tests for now. I really hate getting contrast, and X rays. I'm not feeling very well as I spiked a 103 F temp yesterday and landed in ER. They say it's sinusitis that was left to linger to long. I didn't even know I had it. I'm still not convinced...:) BTW sorry if I was negative in my earlier post on this thread. Sometimes I get so frustrated with this disease.

[maryla]

Glassed,

You can vent anytime you want. That's why we're here. I'm just getting over a sinus infection. I felt horrible. But I had another uti too in my pouch. I hope your feeling better. Take care of you!

Anyway keep us posted.

hugs and blessings

[glassd18]

Thanks Maryla!! I still have a fever, but it's not as high as it was on Sunday. I am monitoring it very closely.