Doin' the thang

[MakinIT]

Well....I decided to go ahead and do the nuerostim trial...if that works then it'll be surgery time....I was at my psychologist's today and he has started doing some "desensitazation...." so I don't completely lose it during the temp. implant. He had me relax then took me step by step through what would happen from the night before to the next day. SO...we made it, in my mind, to the ride to the hospital before my anxiety got too high and he had to calm me down. He said next time we would hopefully get through the procedure, in my mind before Ilost it, cause I think we will be going into the trial in the next week or two. (I'm such a putz....the last procedure we did, the sacral nerve block, took 3 people to hold me down...so that's we are going through the stupid desensitazion) He watches my pulse and such until I'm way too high, then he does all the relaxation exercises with me. theoreticially, I'm supposed to associate my anxiety with the relaxation. I say "screw it" let's just get me drunk!!! (How about some straight shots?) Skip allthis whoha and go straight to IV sedative...(which he will do but it wasn't enough last time.)

Don't have a date yet...will be in the next two weeks...With my luck, it'll be on my birthday...Oh well, who says 39 is so great anyway?:lmao:

I'll just have to let you know how things go:dogrun: (that's me, going the opposite way from the hospital....:) :)

Tracey

[MakinIT]

Wah...is anyone coming to my pity party? I feel so lonely.....:hiding: Does anyone HEAR ME!!!!! I'm freaking about this stupid procedure...anywords of wisdom would be great:kiss:

Thanks alll....you're the greatest bunchof ladies....:D (am I looking for "awws..poor baby..." ? YES!) my luck...this first step will be scheduled on my birthday, next Friday....oh, well..what else is there to do?

Tracey

[vm]

I don't usually read this board b/c I know nothing about it. LOL But I saw you started the topic and were the one reply so I wanted to come in and offer a hug and wish you lots of luck!!!! :kissing:

[jaime15]

{{Tracey****
I'm like Kim, I hardly ever use this topic since I don't have the stim.
I hope everything goes well for you and you can get some of your life back!;)
I'm sure, with any surgery, you need to be "babied"!! So if I were closer I'd make sure the house was clean and you really had clean bed sheets for when you come home.......That always makes me rest better!
Big hugs and I hope you feel like letting us know how you are!
BTW.....my hubby turned 39 this year too! I've decided to throw a big 4 0 surprise bash next April for him....Take care!:kiss:

[ICNDonna]

It's normal to be nervous about having a surgical procedure. If you weren't just a little bit scared, I'd worry more about you.

I just hope this will be an answer for you.

Sending warm hugs and prayers your direction,
Donna

[MakinIT]

A little whining goes a long way, eh?:)

Seriously...you all are the greatest...don't know What I'd do w/o this board. You are the sweetest folks around!!!! I know it's normal to be anxious BUT I am breaking out in sweats...hair standing on end...etc...just thinking about it. But, that's my homework right now...Thinking about it and talking myself into a relaxed state...My psychologist looks like Captain Picard from Star Trek so I find it hard not to comply with his commands!!! Ha,, ha...His voice, though, on my relaxation tapes, is intoxicately numbing. he is thinking about coming to my procedure to help with the whole thing. Hopefully, I will be better sedated.

Thanks again.

T

[Teri]

Tracey~being nervous is SOOOOOOOOOOOO normal. I thought I'd have a heart attack on the way to the hospital and I was operated on 5 times (doesn't include my first "trial" and I was even more nervous on the 5th time than I was on the first time.......just keep telling yourself that as soon as they get you all hooked up they will give you medication and you won't be thinkin' or carin' about that old bladder:butterfly :butterfly

Everything will be just fine.....
wishing you the very very best~

[MakinIT]

Well Teri: I've been under the knife more times than I count...and the one thing I've always been comforted by is the fact that I will be medicated, in fact, I get so uptight, my gyno prescribes versed for me while I'm waiting in the pre-op area. and everything is just peachy keen. However, the last time, with the block, they didn't give me enough versed because, apparently, my valium uptake means I'm tolerant to sedation. So I will need more...and this doc doesn't dig giving much to begin with. (He's great otherwise) SOOO...at least the psych is working with the pain doc and beating him over the head with a 2 X 4 to make him understand how much this sucked for me. I'm told the psych I want to remember NOTHING about the trial procedure....If it goes on to permanent, then they will put meout completely but the trial, they have to have me somewhat responsive. My toes curl thinking about it.

I just wanna normal life..the onlly thing I have to worry about is explaining to my 14 year why her size D boobs are just toooo big for a size medium shirt in juniors. (I'm just old and don't get it...my retort is she just young and doesn't get the reason why boys drive by and yell that they like her "tits") I'm too tired to do this crap. Then my youngest gives me crap about everything from her breakfast cereal being cold to her outfit being wrinkled.

AAAAARGHHHH...hopefully, this surgery will allow me to deal with these daily normal problems with the humor I used to have.

Tracey

[dyno]

Tracey,
I hope this will be the treatment that helps. Good Luck.:kiss:

[MakinIT]

Thanks....I appreciate the kind words...Just what I was looking for...:) I just got sticker shock on my foray back toschool this summer. I have a scholarship for 9500 for the year but the first term they are only giving me 500 (rest is 3000) I have topay nearly 1500 bucks inthe next month so Ican go ....holy crap...I was expecting this scholarship to take care of most of it. I also expected summer tuition to be cheaper....no,no,no.....My hubby is going to poop his pants when he finds out.:cussing: :yikes: All I can do is remind him of how wonderful it will be when I'm done and charging all the lovely additional "fees" .... :bonk: Maybe this was a bad idea. Ithough they said my scholarship would cover nearly everything, I'd only have a small part topay.

Oh well...what's money anyway?

Tracey