ibtracy
04-27-2004, 03:48 AM
Wouldn't you know it? I have been bragging on the remission board about how much better I've been feeling and last Friday it began. It's been a dull roar until yesterday and this one's knocked me flat. I am in so much pain, missed work yesterday and today now. I'm so weak and fatigued and my bladder pain is off the charts. I remember last month when I missed almost the entire month of work, I kep saying if only I could have 1 day to re-coup and regather my strenghths I could take on more. Well I had 3 good weeks and feel like I could curl up and die from this pain. I'm taking 40 mg of Oxycontin but have to be careful taking that because last time I took it for a few days I had to be cathed because I couldn't pee. Has anyone ever experienced a flare after having dental work done? I'm always trying to pinpoint the causes of these terrible flares but never quite sure. I'm still trying to get myself to drink massive quantities of water but still have not learned to like the taste. Sounds strange I know. I really watch what I eat and try to drink more healthy liquids and haven't drank any alcohol for 3 months now. I really am trying but sometimes it seems it doesn't matter what I do. I'm so sick of having this disease control my life. I'm on probation at work due to all the time I've missed since being hired last August and if I don't keep the missed time to a minimum I will be out of job for sure. That stress doesn't help things either. I know when I experience a flare that bedrest and avoiding stress for a few days is what works best but then I have the stress hanging over my head of missing work and what will happen when I don't go in. It's awful. No one in my entire family has ever heard of IC and I don't have many to talk to about all of this except my ICN family. I've never received so much support in my life and for that I thank you all.
My husband has turned angelic on me. I used to post about what an as- he could be when I didn't feel well or missed work and now he's trying so hard to help me through this. He always tries to say encouraging things to me each morning about how this is a new day and to try my best and how he hopes it will be a good day for me and not to get down. Sometimes when he says all this especially on a day like today I feel like I'm letting him down by being sick. He helps me gain the strength to take this disease on and give it my all but today I have nothing along the lines of combat. I'm weak, scared about missing work and full of pain. I only hope he'll understand when he finds out that I didn't go in.
I still have my appointment in May to look forward to. My aunt found a urologist in Omaha, NE that deals primarily with IC patients. I guess he's young and fresh with treatment plans and options for IC sufferers like me. The soonest I could get in to see him was May 18th - so I have to hang on about 3 more weeks and I pray every night that he'll have options for me that will minimize my suffering with IC pain. Sometimes the hardest thing is to keep being hopeful.
I was on Elavil for chronic pain control and slight depression but have been off that for about a week now and am just thinking to myself I wonder if that's part of this flare. I had gained over 30 pounds since being diagnosed in March and being on it. I had forgotten to take it one night and then another and decided to quit and have lost about 10 pounds in the last week. I'll wait until I talk to the new doc and see what he says about it before dumping it back into my system. I am one of those extremely self conscious people always worrying about how I look on top of dealing with IC and feeling lousey and having good days.
My life is a chaotic mess right now but I have to remain somewhat optimistic or it will get the best of me. Thanks for letting me vent...:cat:
My husband has turned angelic on me. I used to post about what an as- he could be when I didn't feel well or missed work and now he's trying so hard to help me through this. He always tries to say encouraging things to me each morning about how this is a new day and to try my best and how he hopes it will be a good day for me and not to get down. Sometimes when he says all this especially on a day like today I feel like I'm letting him down by being sick. He helps me gain the strength to take this disease on and give it my all but today I have nothing along the lines of combat. I'm weak, scared about missing work and full of pain. I only hope he'll understand when he finds out that I didn't go in.
I still have my appointment in May to look forward to. My aunt found a urologist in Omaha, NE that deals primarily with IC patients. I guess he's young and fresh with treatment plans and options for IC sufferers like me. The soonest I could get in to see him was May 18th - so I have to hang on about 3 more weeks and I pray every night that he'll have options for me that will minimize my suffering with IC pain. Sometimes the hardest thing is to keep being hopeful.
I was on Elavil for chronic pain control and slight depression but have been off that for about a week now and am just thinking to myself I wonder if that's part of this flare. I had gained over 30 pounds since being diagnosed in March and being on it. I had forgotten to take it one night and then another and decided to quit and have lost about 10 pounds in the last week. I'll wait until I talk to the new doc and see what he says about it before dumping it back into my system. I am one of those extremely self conscious people always worrying about how I look on top of dealing with IC and feeling lousey and having good days.
My life is a chaotic mess right now but I have to remain somewhat optimistic or it will get the best of me. Thanks for letting me vent...:cat: