Don't Know where to Start...

[elitynski]

Hello all...I am having a tough time right now.

I'm taking anti-depressants but I still find the day to be a difficult thing to face. Getting up, showering (when I can), brushing my teeth, taking my morning meds, getting dressed - take so much effort.

Then there's the number of dr. appts - this week I have an MRI for a heel irritation - not sure if it's tendon or bursa, but it's something and then I'll have the MRI review on Thursday where we'll decide what treatment to start. I also have some chronic tennis elbow which I need to see the Ortho for - and we'll see what that treatment leads to.

Saw my G.I. and URO last week - colonoscopy coming up in Dec and was given a med for Versicare to start trying. I started seeing a psychologist for stress & anxiety and so we'll see how that goes.

Bottom line - I just feel depressed about everything going wrong in my body - coupled with my obesity - I started at 408 lbs this summer and am down to around 375. That's a good start but I'm still very large.

I also don't know how the obesity is affecting all of these things in my body - I don't really have a support system here in Chicago and I don't really have weekend plans. I'm lonely - depressed - sad.

I've tried talking to a few friends and they were not very understanding and that makes me feel all the more alone.

Not sure what to do as I feel like my energy is just being drained from my well-being. It's exhausting.:(:(:(

[sailawaygrl]

Congratulations on your weight loss!! That is great for just the summer. I know you have a long way to go but don't lose your momentum! Be sure to lose your weight safely. What is your goal weight? Or are you just working toward better health? I know it is hard, be sure to have a "buddy" that is very important for those days when you feel like giving up! Two pounds a week is considered safe. I used Weight Watchers and so have many in my family and had excellent results. I never used the plan with IC though, so I am unsure how it would adapt. I would think it wouldn't be difficult to make it work though. I alway chose the points system, works better for me. I also applaud you for taking the step to see a psychologist. I recently took the same step and have not regretted the choice once. It is slow, you don't have any big "moments" but you will start seeing a difference in your mind set and how you look at your situation.

I know you are having a hard time right now, but I did want to offer what support I could and hopefully make you see the bright things going on for you!!

I wish you all the best.

Sandra

[ICNDonna]

You're doing great with the weight loss. I know it can be discouraging when it seems like there is still so far to go, but you have already proved that you can do it!

When I'm feeling low, I like to watch old movies --- I have many DVDs so I can pick a favorite --- I especially like musicals.

Hugs,
Donna

[dyno]

I agree you are doing great with your weight loss. Having a buddy is a good idea. I think Weight Watchers even has an online program and you could talk to people that way too.

I also like to watch movies when I have time.

Hang in there and know you always have friends on the ICN.:hi:

[suncaro23]

Elitynski, just want to wish you a good day. You are dealing with a lot, but you can do it! Sometimes, when you have lots of doc appts., you have to look at it as it is because you are on your way to a better life down the road.
The appointments are a step towards that.

[Tuckersmom]

I'm sorry that you're feeling so overwhelmed right now. Multiple health problems which result in mutiple doctor visits and tests can get the better of us at times. My PCP put me on Cymbalta yesterday. I told him that if I didn't believe suicide would send me to Hell, I'd just as soon be dead. Hang in there. You're getting the help you need, and surely some of these issues will begin to get resolved. Know that you are not alone in your journey. (((Hugs)))