I can't seem to find a reason anymore

[waterflow]

I have tried and tried but I just feel like I mean nothing in this world. Like I don't have a place. Like fish out of water. A deflated balloon. Thought with the cats I would finally find a reason why I was born but now I wonder if I did wrong by keeping them. Long story on that one. Nothing seems fun anymore. I get up, do what cleaning I can, Take care of them and go to bed. Then when need to go to doc's and for groceries. The baby booties stopped selling even. Plus I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tired of hearing how fat I am. The only thing that does is make me eat more. Now with having to tell my Uro how much I weighed for that pill and in the end I had already tried it so now he knows how fat I am. He can tell I've gained a lot of weight over time but now he knows just how much fatter I am. Sort of can't wait for winter and I can hybernate.

[LithEruiel]

Your cats are a reason. Without you they could be living on the street or with someone who's cruel or neglectful or they could have been put to sleep. Even if they have medical problems they'd be suffering much worse in a shelter or without anyone to take care of them. How is your IC kitty doing? Are you well enough to do some volunteer work, maybe at an animal shelter or something else you're interested in? It might make you feel like you're making a difference. Even if you just go for an hour or so, I'm sure there's somewhere that would appreciate it.

I don't know what you're taking, but when I was on antidepressants I gained a lot of weight. It seems very common. I know it's hard to deal with though. I've somehow gained the weight back that I lost from going off antidepressants... your doctor isn't actually calling you fat is he? That's wrong for anyone to do...

Living with a condition like IC is very difficult...you should be proud of yourself for being strong enough to deal with it, even though you might be having a hard time right now. I've felt like giving up with it myself...

Best wishes...hope you're feeling better soon.

[leelee88]

Very well said Ashley!!

Hang in there Mary!!! Hugs!!

[Skynard]

Hey, life will get better. I just keep putting one foot in front of the other. Each morning I ask God to let me get dressed and put my hair into a ponytail. There are some days when that is as far as I get and there are other days like last Saturday where I actually made it to one of my son's soccer games! Seeing that the season is just about over, that was a huge mental and physical boost for me. I keep telling myself that both IBS/IC will give me good and bad days and I have to prepare for BOTH. After all, if I get blessed with an absolutely wonderful day, I'm going SHOPPING, which I have not done for over three months!!!!

Just wondering if you are an any anti-depressants? They made me worse mentally and they took me off of them. I didn't see your meds listed.

Know you are in my prayers!

God Bless,

[statesboro]

I did notice you have gotten some decent responses by now. Regardless, I still wanna add some more now. I did not like reading that you feel worthless. Of course, you stated the same thing without using the word "worthless". Anyhow, I know I have felt lost and like a loser before.(especially after being diagnosed 12 years ago) Yep! It is not all too uncommon while dealing with a chronic illness. Besides, I know we don't enjoy having IC at all. I don't always have a very exciting life. Of course, I have been told IC and CFS.(and current sinus trouble) Ok, then. I am the only one living upstairs in the apartment. Oh, yeah! I can hear my 2 parakeets making noise right now. I just let the dog come upstairs.(until I get finished here) Hey! Life goes on. God said he will never leave you nor forsake you. Of course, I don't know what all you believe. (nope) Our God is an awesome God. God is always good. I manage to get by. I don't feel like hanging out too much. Most of the people aroung my age in town are married with children by now. I am a 43 years old male, by the way. I had seen your username in the past, but I realize I don't really know you. You are still ok with me. I still got love for you. Besides, we are all dealing with this horrible bladder disease. What a bummer! Yep! I would figure you have got an antidepressant now. I don't know. I have taken some before. Oh! I have never had a weight problem before.(nope) I have been with some women that did by now. Maybe I decided I would not be too picky any longer. I do know you are somebody. Come on. What would the cats do without you? Do you really think they have been appreciating you? By the way, I have been to a phyciatrist before, too. I don't know about you. Maybe I will have a moment where I feel like a loser during the current week. What do I know? I am not gonna say I am a no good total loser. Ok, then. Try to take care and be good. I will let that be all for now.

[Bekah79]

:grouphug::pray::angel: Hang In There, Mary

Keep The Faith:pray:

[Skynard]

Just an update....I WENT SHOPPING!! (Of course I didn't buy anything for me, but my kid will like his new shoes!)

God blesses us in the smallest ways, but I can tell you that TODAY I feel like a million bucks mentally. Sometimes just getting outside to smell the fresh air and hear the birds can get your focus back. Hope you are feeling better today.

God Bless.

[GEMINI]

:) keep your head up. i hope things will eventually get better 4ya.

[suncaro23]

Skynard-I'm so glad you made it to your son's soccer game, and went shopping! These are little things to some people, but big things to IC sufferers.
And cats, dogs and other pets are a good reason to get up each day. They need us and love us no matter what, and they do give our lives a purpose! So please remember that and hang in there.