I don't feel like myself

[AngKat]

Hey everyone. I hope everyone is having a good weekend!

Before I leave the house for the day I just wanted to vent...
The past couple days I have not felt like myself. I'm so nervous all the time. It's the 1 year anniversary since my downward spiral of problems. Firs the IC then the V, then the VV, then the Endo then the IC again. oy. I guess it's all of that getting to me. Among other changes. I wonder if it's the fact I'm 21 and got thrown into a chemically induced menopause thanks to Lupron. Or maybe the fact I moved back in w/ my parents who are "co-existing" after knowing them being happily married for 20 years of my life. ahhhhh. I'm sure it's a lot of things. But I'm scared. I really believe that having the types of medical problems we have can affect our emotional and mental state.

I don't sleep well anymore, and I feel like I'm out of my own body half the time. I'm not quite sure if I'd call it Depression b/c it's not all the time. But when it comes, it hits me hard.

And I'm scared there's nothing I can do about it b/c I couldn't even handle the 10mg of Amitryptaline prescribed to me for IC! How would I ever handle being on medication for something like DepressioN!?

This is really hard for me to put out there for everyone to see. But idk how else to get it off my mind. I'm seeing that IC Specialist NP tomorrow. Should I bring up how I'm feeling?

HUGS!! :bunny:

[ICNDonna]

Definitely share how you are feeling. There are other medications that can help you feel better. Sometimes it takes a while to find the right combination, but hopefully you will get there soon.

Warm hugs,
Donna

[Trishann]

I am also really sensitive to medication. There are some things I can not take so I have to go to a different selection. Sounds like your body has been through so much and now getting it back into balance may take a little time, especially finding the right meds for you. Hang in there.

Trish

[TexasHoney]

:grouphug:You definitely should mention these things to your doctor. I hope things get better for you soon.

Hang In There

[VickiB]

Yep, definitely mention how you're feeling.

While it is hard to put out there how you're feeling, it's often that first, necessary step to getting a problem resolved. Good luck with your visit tomorrow!

Vicki

[SharonA]

I hope you were able to get some answers at your appointment. :)

[Mrs. Peel]

I hope your appointment went well. I, too, am very sensitive to drugs.

I have a lot of personal experience with what you described, but I'm not a doctor. I hope you won't mind if I share.

The problems you mentioned sound like mild depersonalization episodes. They can be pretty scary! I wouldn't expect a doctor to throw drugs at it, except maybe to help you sleep. A little talk therapy might be all you need.

Please be careful of giving in to that feeling of being outside yourself. It's easy to become addicted to the escape it provides.

I'm not the only one sending you loving thoughts. It will get better, I'm sure.

[ABliske]

So sorry you are going through a hard time. I know this disease can change you. I used to have so much more energy before I started meds. I also saw my parents in a "co-existing" state as you put it. They divorced when I was 21 and are still very bitter. It's so tough. I think you should talk to your Dr.

[aleet7]

I'm so sorry that you are feeling badly and going through all of this at once! Please let us know how your appointment went.
Hugs,
Aleet7