falling apart

[ABliske]

I am really depressed. I have turned here for a lot of support throughout the years. I just had to go to the psych ward in the hospital because my husband said he was afraid I'd hurt myself!!! I'd never go so far as to truley consider ending it all. It was an idle threat I kept making. I did not want to go but ended up staying there 1 day and I still am waiting for a call back from a psycholgist I was referred to. I am seeking professional help! I want to be on some anitdepressants. I know that is what is needed! I have severe IC, have been working, have a young baby, financial stresses, and a lot of fighting with my husband. I want to find a new job but with the ecomony it's almost impossible.
Please respond if you have ever been through something similar. I am feeling like I'm the only one and am a failure.

[anewday]

Aw, sweetie you're not the only one. (hugs) to you. How old is your baby? It could be Postpartum Depression- I believe it can develop up to 12 months after you have delivered.

Sometimes I think I am falling apart- so many things going on. Just try to take it one day at a time, and remember that things will not always be the way they are right now- even if you think they will. I never thought my bladder pain would get better- and it has. It may get worse again, and if it does I'll find a way though it.

You have a lot going on right now. We moms tend to not take time for ourselves, always putting everyone else's needs ahead of our own. Well, the saying is true- if momma ain't happy, noobody's happy. Please, please take care of yourself- eat right, get enough sleep, have some downtime- and see the counselor and follow thru with whatever treatment plan you are given.

I hope things look up for you soon.

[c2miracle]

Definitely follow thru with your psychologist. Just talking with someone is relieving some of your pressures. It is very important to take care of yourself, especially when you have a little one. We tend to forget we need pampering too. Sending you a great big hug and keep your head up, your fellow ICers are here for you, anytime :)

[Jerzeygirl]

Hang in there hun things will get better for you! Sometimes we tend to think of all the negative things that go on in our lives...finances,health problems, relationship issues,family issues ect. We end up placing large amounts of mental and physical stress on our bodies. I def think that stress causes IC flare ups. I know personally when things are looking down for me..I look at all the positive things in my life. Just think that you have a beautiful baby at home that loves you unconditionally, you have a husband who loves you dearly, you are surviving during this economic crisis, and your disease can only get better (read the success storied on here..they are very encouraging). I find that talking to people about my problems takes a lot of stress off of me. I would do a little research on the internet and see if there is any psychologists who work with patients with IC/ other urology/gynecology problems. Its very discouraging when your psychologist knows nothing about your disease. I know first hand. My old psychologist would shake her head and say how sorry she was to hear that I am going through all this. She offered no advice and basically told me that she hopes researchers find a cure for this. thankfully my urologist referred to another Psychologist that is well trained in IC and other uro/gyno issues. This psychologist and her practice attend many seminars given by urologists and gynecologists on the east coast. I am sure that theres psychologists on the west coast that do the same. In the mean time try to stay positive and hopeful. Things will get better for you. If you need to talk feel free to message me.

[ABliske]

Good idea about seeing someone who knows about IC. When I went to the hospital with morphine in my purse I think they instantly thought I was abusing it. I am not and would not. I will take a look at the success stories when I get a chance.

[vm]

Of goodness, yes. I have been a past recipient of therapy and even did a two week stint in the hospital b/c of severe depression and anxiety back in 1992. Getting help can much SUCH a difference!!! There is no shame in it at all - and it can really turn things around. :)

[Preacher-Girl]

I am also wondering how old your baby is. It seems like you are just very overwhelmed and something has to give. If you can't work right now then you can't work right now. Your body and mind need a chance to heal after having a baby and just having a young child is stressful. My stress didn't let up until my daughter was almost four. I was extremely overwhelmed and went to a day hospital (outpatient) especially for women who were postpartum. I know how hard it is and how you feel as if you are falling apart at the seems. If you can go on medical leave or work less hours or simply quit - all 3 of those options are usually good. Antidepressants are good but sometimes they will only temporarily mask the awful stress we are under until we collapse. Counseling is always good and I encourage you to go forward with that. I had an extremely difficult time after I had my daughter. I wish both my husband and I had made different choices during that time to ease the stress. My gut is just telling me that now is not a good time for you to be working. I think that is what has pushed you to the brink. You can also consider temporary disability.

PM me anytime. I understand what you are going through.

Angela