once again

[waterflow]

Got into a big arguement this morning. One thing led to another and nothing wrong with me. Always something wrong with them but not me. After all these years still I hear that. Plus I helped them out all the years with their problem but now I hear I didn't and I'm stupid and so on and so on. Plus I'm t blame for some things. So, no more being a retard. Will not help another living soul ever again. I don't care if they are passed out in the street. They can stay there. No more being a fool.

[ICNDonna]

Please don't allow one or two people to discourage you about the whole world. There are many, many caring people out there.

:grouphug:
Donna

[tigger_gal]

Don't let people get you down. Just because there are childish, and have no morals does not mean that all people are that way. You are a Beautiful person, kind, caring, and very supportive, never forget that.

[SharonA]

Mary...You know and we all know just what kind of person you really are. You are too special to believe their nonsense. Usually, when someone decides to put another person down, it is because they are deficient in the very same thing they try to put on the other.

Sending you lots of (((hugs)))

[waterflow]

I am just soooooooooo tired of it. My whole life I have been called stupid by everyone, including strangers. All I have heard is I'm a fat lazy retard who couldn't get a man. I'm tired of feeling guilty about having the cats too. I pay for them, I take care of them. Everyone else it seems gets to have a life except me. I'm tired of feeling guilty just about breathing.

See, I don't understand how you guys could say nice things about me when no one else ever has (except Uro and nurses and sometimes I think they just said those things to make it sound good)

I'm even on the cymbalta which I don't want to be but have to stay on it for good this time which means I stay fat. Don't like being fat and tired of hearing how fat I am but what else can I do? Why are women judge by how fat or thin they are. Now when I was thinner all I heard was I was too thin. Since 6th grade I have been on a diet and I'm sick of it. There is more to my life then being a maid and dieting. At least I would hope there is.
Thanks for the kind words.

[SharonA]

I think is is because we can see your heart. (((hugs)))

[Zygala87]

Mary my advice, for what it is worth, is to take up a hobby, take a course offered at most schools for adults or join a club with people your age. I belong to RedHatters. A fun group who care very much about each other. You have a soul and it is not fat or thin. It just is itself. Is it possible to do volunteer work at a local hospital, Humane Society, Childrens home? We are not defined by what we look like but how we look at life. You need an outlet that takes you away for a time from people who put you down. I care very much about you and don't believe for a minute that you would not help a Soul in trouble. Hugs, Ziggy

[dking2]

I do not know how long you have been taking the Cymbalta, but I lost weight when I was on it. You should probably give it some more time to get in your system.

[Briza]

Mary ((((HUGS))))
I can only second what Sharon said. What she said is SO true!!!!!!:grouphug:

I DO love Zyg's idea about volunteering at SPCA, Humane Society, or some animal rescue place, possibly a rescue place that is devoted specifically to cats, since they are so much a part of your life and your passion! :cat:

I remember, too, how much a passion you have for gardening, so I hope you are out planting things now that it is spring, I have gardened some in my past and it is SO rewarding....and possibly you could get involved with a gardening club or work or volunteer part time with a nursery or some kind of conservation group that helps with replanting/re-establishing/re-foresting areas that have been been damaged by "progress" but are now undergoing efforts to restore them to their natural/former state! Contact conservation groups, wildlife and nature reserves in your area and you will find that your help in something like this will be much needed, much appreciated and very rewarding....and you will meet new NICE people who appreciate you for all that you do, for who you are, and share common interests with you.

I KNOW this because where I am working now I am in charge of recruiting volunteers for such things, and they are involved with so many other rewarding things volunteering for other conservation groups. Majority of these volunteers are either retirees or those who have some kind of disability that forced them into retirement earlier than they would have wanted, but still have so much to give and want to be active and meet new people with common interests. Please look into these things! If you would like my help in finding such opportunites, just let me know, pm me, and I will help you out as much as I can, OK?! Luv, B :kiss: