I made it thru the move

[YankeeCandle224]

but just barely. I almost wound up in the hospital again with another severe UTI/kidney infection and the IC spasms in my bladder are unreal at times. I cant go a day without taking pyridium or my other (the blue pill) med for my bladder pain.

I have just finished cleaning out my townhouse, everything is either in storage or here, and this place is a mess, too much stuff merged into one place.

I'm trying to get used to not having my freedom, or was that lonliness, because I feel this is my husbands house, not mine.

We're trying to pick up where we left off, but its not easy, and yesterday we were all at my townhouse cleaning it for inspection and up drives the ex bf on his motorcycle, back, and forth, hiding where he thought nobody could see him, but everyone knows where he was....once he passed my husband right in front of the townhouse when hubby was coming back from the store getting us all something to drink.....it was a nightmare and I was so afraid the bf would do something stupid, like get off the bike and park......I was a nervous wreck..I can just see my husband in a brawl with the ex bf...granted, we had a very long relationship, and no, I am not over him, but seeing him just stirred up feelings I was just letting go of, and I know the husband is ****** beyond belief that he was even present at all. It was a fluke, he didnt know we'd be there, but he did know that I had to go clean it sometime, and took a guess and showed up.........oh Lord.

So now I am trying to get our bedroom into some sembalance of a room because my clothes are everywhere, its a wreck, and we get to do it all over again in a few months because we've been pre approved for a house and the realtor is taking me out next week.

OOh, and I went to the pain doc the other day and he put me on morphine because nothing was helping the pain. So I've been in a little bit of withdrawl from the oxycontin, but not too bad, taking one a day til they're gone...the morphine does seem to help my pain some anyway, so there is some encouraging news.

Anyway, to all my friends, I've missed you all and I hope my new email account will accept pm's and notifications that I have replies.

I hope everyone is well and I have a lot of reading to do!!

Love, Sandy

[Audrey Rose]

Oh Sandy, you poor thing!! How very stressful for you. No wonder you ended up back at the hospital. :frown:
I pray that things mellow out a bit for you sweetie. And that you find the perfect house that will make these frequent moves worth it in the long run!! :) I am glad the pain is better. Hang in there!!

Big bear hug and a kiss!!! :kissing:

[Iris]

Hi Sandy. sorry to read your post, hope that you will start feeling a lot better soon, I imagine the stress did not help either. Take care and keep us posted, hugs Iris.:hi: :grouphug:

[Dixiefireball]

Hey Sandy,
Glad to see you back I have been wondering how you have been.
Yea that was some nerve of your ex to drive by then your husband standing there i would had been a wreak also. You poor thing. I hope since things are getting moved you will be able to relax i told you not to push yourself i was so worried about that for you. i hope the infection is under control now and the pain is easing off. i hope this is the right meds for you.
if you need me you have my email plus its at the end of this post i have really missed you girl.
sending you hugs and prayers
Rhonda

[YankeeCandle224]

you guys all brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for welcoming me back.

Rhonda, thank you for the lovely post. It made me feel good to know someone was thinking about me. I still am a wreck because I got an email from the bf who figured out my email because he knew hubby's internet provider.......now he's stalking me, because he said "i see hes home now" on one of them, so hes watching here too. Makes me feel even more of a hermit than I was.

My husband doesnt yet understand what its like to live with a chronically ill person, I didnt get sick til about 3 years ago, or about 3 1/2 years ago and we were seperated for almost 6 years.

I need to educate him about all the pill bottles in the mornning, that I have to take the afternoon dose at a certain time so the pain doesnt get ahead of me, and then the nighttime dosages......plus the fatigue. I've done remarkable things that I thought I couldnt do being as sick as I am, and now that the whirlwind is over I'm simply pooped, tired, sore, and sick, yet still trying to keep up with the laundry, arranging our room, and seeing houses with the realtor tomorrow........I dont know how I'm going to do it, I really dont. I literally fall asleep eating at night I'm so exhausted, and fall asleep watching tv with the kids.

THEY understand, but he doesnt, not yet. I need to find that letter to normals, written by a fibro/cfs patient, and include IC in that letter to him so that he sees the full scope of all the illnesses, syndromes, and autoimmune problems I have.

He HATED that I came home with morphine for pain the other day, but it isnt a big dose but could have something to do with the sleepiness, as well as working my arse off......things have got to slow down or I'm going to be so sick its going to be hard to come out of it.

Anyway, back to the couch, I am too pooped to even sit here right now........thank you all for caring, I really am touched.

Love, Sandy

[dyno]

Sandy,
I had been wondering too how you were doing, glad you made it through it.

That Ex BF of yours, he is something else. The added stress of that is not helping. If the stalking continues, you may want to consider some legal action to put an end to it.

Hugs,:grouphug:

[Sarojini]

Hi Sandy, it is nice to see you back posting!! I hope you start to feel better soon... :grouphug:

I think your hubby will eventually come around... it's a big adjustment for the spouse, I think, and it will take a bit of time to get him used to everything. My hubby is great about it... right after we got engaged, my allergies and asthma took a big turn for the worse, and I had to be put on all kinds of new meds (I STILL take them) that were required daily so that I would be able to breathe. And then I was diagnosed with IC after we'd been married just 8 months, and this added a bunch of new meds and things too.

At first he was a bit out of sorts, and the assortment of pill bottles, inhalers, etc confused him, but now he knows all of my medications and dosages by heart, and announces at the proper time that "Honey, it's time for your 'night medicine'!" Or morning medicine, or afternoon medicine, whatever the case may be. I even tested him once and asked him to bring the "night medicine" to me.... and he brought all the correct meds AND the correct number of pills for each med with a big glass of water. :)

I bet in time your hubby will come around too! It can be scary when suddenly your house has more pills than Walgreens in it :)

Rest, and take care of yourself!!

Jen

[ICchell]

Sandy,
good luck with the realtor next week.

[SharonA]

Husbands are a strange lot. They are used to finding the cause of a problem and solving it. They have a hard time when that is not possible. Give him time. It took some time for my husband. He told me he felt so helpless and useless because he could not take the pain away and could only watch me suffer. Now, he is a great source of comfort and support.

[ICNDonna]

I honestly think you should get some help in dealing with the ex bf --- it sounds like you may be dealing with an unstable, unpredictable personality. Be careful. And I do agree that you might need to take some legal steps to stop this.

Sending an encouraging hug,
Donna