Found out where I stand today

[waterflow]

Today sure was a bad day. I’ve been trying to get help from my GP with the wellbutrin or something else to try. He’s booked through the holidays so I left a message with him and thought maybe he could call my Uro with an idea on what to do. They’ve done it before in the past. Found out this morning from my Uro my GP never called and to make a long story short my Uro told me he won’t help me anymore that way. I’m to survive on my own. Which I thought wasn’t right. He knew all these years I was depending on him to just live at times. He told me many times in the beginning and just a little while ago I could go to him if need be. Of course I’m to blame big time to let myself get dependant on anyone which I will NEVER do again. So, here I am hanging on to the end of the rope trying to decide if I hold on or let go and believe me there are times when it would be so much easier to let go but I don’t for the cats. I have been such a FOOL over the years and I will never ever ask anyone for help again. Won’t go back to my GP. No need to and there were 2 years I didn’t go because of what happened last time. Went back on the Zoloft. At least it keeps me drugged out and I can google it to see how high the dose can go and I’ll increase it on my own when need be. I pretty much am completely alone now here. NOT ONE PERSON to help me and I won’t ever ask for help from someone again. I HAVE BEEN SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO STUPID!! Guess to him I’m just on old, worn out, worthless, losing money shoe. If I’m not on here for a while I just don’t feel up to it. There really is no more help for me. Thought about how to get off the vicodin too and all the other pills and the instill. Will work at one med at a time.
I even told him I won't make it on my ow (I'm not stupid) but he still wouldn't call GP. :confused:

[anewday]

(((hugs))) to you. Please don't talke about giving up. I know how it feels, at times I think the only thing that keeps me going is my kids and animals. I think you need to call your primary care provider or someone and get a referral to a psychologist ASAP. Does your work provide EAP (employee assistance program)? If so you should get x amount of free sessions. If you need to talk, pm or email me. You are not alone and it is okay to lean on others for help. :angel: I am praying for you.

[Mothergoose]

I don't know what you are going through but please don't give up, I am sure others will jump in and give you some ideas on how to get help and new doctors. I know these can be very frustrating and get you down, hang in there tomorrow is another day.

Best wishes to you.

[crazy_beautiful]

Mary
WE ARE HERE FOR YOU. I am so sorry you are having such difficult time. Maybe you should do what I did a few years back and fire all my doctors and start from scratch. You must request your medical records tho.
don't give up, and don't stop coming you need to get thru this and crawling in a shell won't help. trust me, and I am sure others will agree we have done it.

[yvette]

Mary I can't add much more than what the others have already posted. But certainly don't give up.

I ran into the same problem, my uro and PCP wouldn't give me the antidepressants for managing anything other than pain. It just isn't their specialty. They both insisted I had to go see a counselor, because that's what that person does for a job. I really strongly urge you to see someone who can counsel you with the real heavy issues you're dealing with and they can swap out meds until something clicks with you. And you don't owe anyone an explanation as to what kind of Doctor appt you have, just that you have a Doctor's appt should suffice.

Good Luck and don't give up!! :grouphug: