malone
03-24-2004, 11:02 AM
Hi Guys,
Well I told you how much better I was after finding the mold. I am getting of the oxycontin using methadone and clonidine but it is so hard! Believe it or not I am down to 1 mg. of methadone but when I try to give it up the withdrawal is so horrible. Fri. I had the worst bladder spasm and would not take anything b/c I read where your body needs to make its own endorphins to fight pain. I thought maybe that would help with withdrawal. I feel just So depressed and my bladder is beginning to flare bad I think from the stress or maybe even just like a filler in the clonidine. Clonidine is a blood pressure med that seems to block some withdrawal symptoms and has been good but sometimes my pressure gets to low and I have to stop it for awhile. I feel like I have been trying to get off this stuff for so long! It has been about 2 months and I just feel so isolated and sad! I know I should be happy that I will probably never have to be on daily meds again. I know I will need stuff for occasional flares and I wonder how long it would take to become habituated (not addicted-big difference!) if when this is over b/c I never want to go through this again. I just feel so isolated right now. Thanks for listening guys and know my thoughts are with you all. Malone
Well I told you how much better I was after finding the mold. I am getting of the oxycontin using methadone and clonidine but it is so hard! Believe it or not I am down to 1 mg. of methadone but when I try to give it up the withdrawal is so horrible. Fri. I had the worst bladder spasm and would not take anything b/c I read where your body needs to make its own endorphins to fight pain. I thought maybe that would help with withdrawal. I feel just So depressed and my bladder is beginning to flare bad I think from the stress or maybe even just like a filler in the clonidine. Clonidine is a blood pressure med that seems to block some withdrawal symptoms and has been good but sometimes my pressure gets to low and I have to stop it for awhile. I feel like I have been trying to get off this stuff for so long! It has been about 2 months and I just feel so isolated and sad! I know I should be happy that I will probably never have to be on daily meds again. I know I will need stuff for occasional flares and I wonder how long it would take to become habituated (not addicted-big difference!) if when this is over b/c I never want to go through this again. I just feel so isolated right now. Thanks for listening guys and know my thoughts are with you all. Malone