kuntrygurl78
08-24-2008, 02:57 PM
Its been a crazy few weeks!
First, work is so crazy busy! I work at a steel scrap yard and we get over 200 customers a day. Its nuts! And we are open on Saturday for a half day, and yesterday I had 115 people. A record for us. Im working 6 days a week, and beteween 55-60 hours. Im just plain worn out. This coming weekend, for Labor Day, we get 3 days off. I need it to sleep!
Speaking of sleep...I have to be up around 5 am to leave here by 6am to be at work around 645 (welcome to living in the boonies). We dont open till 730 but I have to be there early, and I stay late, because I cant get anything else done during open hours. Paperwork, payroll, all the good stuff. I think I handled getting up 6-7 times a night better on my old shift (m-f 5p-1a) because I could sleep in on days when I didnt sleep at night. This job, no can do. I know I sound like I dont like my job. But I do like it. And I feel blessed to be even working. Six weeks of unemployment were awful for me. I just want it to slow down a bit so I dont have to work so many hours. Oh, well I guess. I get OT pay, and I should have my credit cards paid off by November. I have an apt with my gp and IC doc Sept 9 so that one of them might have some ideas on how to help me sleep.
Lets see what else, oh, got a yeast infection last week. Still dealing with it. I tried the cream for a few days, and it didnt work. I was itching myself in my sleep. That caused little sores down there. The cream made them sting. So did going to the bathroom (as if that isnt annoying enough without little sores). So, I called my gp and she prescribed me some pills. I take 1 pill every other day. I have four pills. Just took number 2 today. Hopefully it goes away soon.
Then like a week and a half ago, hubby and I got into a big fight. Then the very next day, my boss had to get on me on some things I havent been doing right. (Im still training) I drove home crying to my bf. Just woeing me, I cant do anything right. I hate having days like that! I did pick myself up the next day, and moved forward. I just hate fighting, then going to work the next day and having a bad work day.
My mom has been married to my step dad since I was 16. Im almost 30. Well, despite how wonderful he is, and how much I love him...he has a serious problem with alcohol. My mom has fibro and most of her pain comes from the tension of living with him. She told him yesterday that if he didnt get help, shes leaving. The sad thing, is that shes said this to him before and didnt leave. I had lunch with her yesterday, and I told her she cant play games. She needs to leave for real this time. She needs to. I dont think this is going to be a scheduled move. I think she will end up calling my brother and I at the last minute, and say that she has to leave now. My brother and I are on alert, and have a plan in place for when that happens. The same thing happened when I left my dad. One day, one moment, it just hits and you cant wait. You just have to leave. I love my mom and I really just want her to be happy.
And to top it all off this week was the 5th anniversary of my grandmothers passing. I grew up in a tiny town, and she only lived a few blocks away most of my life. Then I lived with her the last year and a half of her life. I moved in 6 months before her stroke. She lived another year after the stroke. It was really hard to see someone I loved so much, struggle with such pain and frustration. The time of her death was a blessing because it meant she was no longer in pain. I still miss her so much.
But, she is my angel. She came to me in my dreams in early July. I had a dream that my sister was pregnant. I sent a text to my sister that day in a haha kinda way that she was pregnant. Told her I had a dream. The next week, I sent her a happy birthday text. She sends me one back that my dream came true. I knew it was grandma telling me in my dream. Its not the first time she has come to me like that, and I hope its not the last. I hope that I learn from her when Im pregnant, and dont have to wait for a blue line. Jerry and I are going to start trying for a baby early next year.
I know this is long, and if you read this...thank you. My life is good. Im just frustrated right now. In a month, my little brother is getting married. And five days before his wedding, I will celebrate my first annivesary. Im so excited. Im so blessed. Sending love to all my IC friends. I miss you guys!
First, work is so crazy busy! I work at a steel scrap yard and we get over 200 customers a day. Its nuts! And we are open on Saturday for a half day, and yesterday I had 115 people. A record for us. Im working 6 days a week, and beteween 55-60 hours. Im just plain worn out. This coming weekend, for Labor Day, we get 3 days off. I need it to sleep!
Speaking of sleep...I have to be up around 5 am to leave here by 6am to be at work around 645 (welcome to living in the boonies). We dont open till 730 but I have to be there early, and I stay late, because I cant get anything else done during open hours. Paperwork, payroll, all the good stuff. I think I handled getting up 6-7 times a night better on my old shift (m-f 5p-1a) because I could sleep in on days when I didnt sleep at night. This job, no can do. I know I sound like I dont like my job. But I do like it. And I feel blessed to be even working. Six weeks of unemployment were awful for me. I just want it to slow down a bit so I dont have to work so many hours. Oh, well I guess. I get OT pay, and I should have my credit cards paid off by November. I have an apt with my gp and IC doc Sept 9 so that one of them might have some ideas on how to help me sleep.
Lets see what else, oh, got a yeast infection last week. Still dealing with it. I tried the cream for a few days, and it didnt work. I was itching myself in my sleep. That caused little sores down there. The cream made them sting. So did going to the bathroom (as if that isnt annoying enough without little sores). So, I called my gp and she prescribed me some pills. I take 1 pill every other day. I have four pills. Just took number 2 today. Hopefully it goes away soon.
Then like a week and a half ago, hubby and I got into a big fight. Then the very next day, my boss had to get on me on some things I havent been doing right. (Im still training) I drove home crying to my bf. Just woeing me, I cant do anything right. I hate having days like that! I did pick myself up the next day, and moved forward. I just hate fighting, then going to work the next day and having a bad work day.
My mom has been married to my step dad since I was 16. Im almost 30. Well, despite how wonderful he is, and how much I love him...he has a serious problem with alcohol. My mom has fibro and most of her pain comes from the tension of living with him. She told him yesterday that if he didnt get help, shes leaving. The sad thing, is that shes said this to him before and didnt leave. I had lunch with her yesterday, and I told her she cant play games. She needs to leave for real this time. She needs to. I dont think this is going to be a scheduled move. I think she will end up calling my brother and I at the last minute, and say that she has to leave now. My brother and I are on alert, and have a plan in place for when that happens. The same thing happened when I left my dad. One day, one moment, it just hits and you cant wait. You just have to leave. I love my mom and I really just want her to be happy.
And to top it all off this week was the 5th anniversary of my grandmothers passing. I grew up in a tiny town, and she only lived a few blocks away most of my life. Then I lived with her the last year and a half of her life. I moved in 6 months before her stroke. She lived another year after the stroke. It was really hard to see someone I loved so much, struggle with such pain and frustration. The time of her death was a blessing because it meant she was no longer in pain. I still miss her so much.
But, she is my angel. She came to me in my dreams in early July. I had a dream that my sister was pregnant. I sent a text to my sister that day in a haha kinda way that she was pregnant. Told her I had a dream. The next week, I sent her a happy birthday text. She sends me one back that my dream came true. I knew it was grandma telling me in my dream. Its not the first time she has come to me like that, and I hope its not the last. I hope that I learn from her when Im pregnant, and dont have to wait for a blue line. Jerry and I are going to start trying for a baby early next year.
I know this is long, and if you read this...thank you. My life is good. Im just frustrated right now. In a month, my little brother is getting married. And five days before his wedding, I will celebrate my first annivesary. Im so excited. Im so blessed. Sending love to all my IC friends. I miss you guys!