Kara
08-04-2002, 10:46 AM
Sunday, August 4th, 2002
I don't even know I have a bladder anymore. I feel nothing down there where the old bladder used to be. I get some phantom urgency but it lasts for an hour or two and then goes away this has only happened 2 times. I feel like a child in at an amusement park, that just won the BIGGEST stuffed toy that exists and one hand holding some nice pink cotton candy! Now, I tread very slowly as we speak because as you all know, anything can happen and anything is possible, so I am being very cautious about telling everyone that I am IC free becuase there's a part of me that fears it will come back and there's a part of me that thinks it still exists, and yes I am seeing a therapist for these feelings and my Husband sees her too.
But as far as the past 3 weeks, I have no urgency, no frequency, no pain, and no retention pain.........sometimes I forget to chatheterize myself because I have no feeling down there. My Husband keeps reminding me to do it. As far as cathing myself, I feel nothing. My doc promised me that he would cut the nerves to my urethra so I would never feel any pain down there again, and he was right. I don't feel the catheter going in and I don't feel it inside of my new bladder. In fact, I know I am in the right spot when I can't feel it going in.
I still have the regular old surgery pain but I am not taking pain meds for it. I am trying to just rest and let my body heal on it's own time. For some reason I don't metabolize pain meds correctly and they just don't work, not even for a head ache or back ache. It's wierd, I know..
The new bladder is great and I am happy about that but weary. I feel there is so much stress right now that I might screw the surgery up. But I keep going. Once Allen gets a job, I think I will feel much better all the way around physically and mentally because our health insurance is running through my old job and it runs out in 2-3 months. I can't wait for the chat rooms to be up and running. I miss you all!
Love,
Kara <img src="graemlins/lmao.gif" border="0" alt="[lmao]" /> cool.gif smile.gif biggrin.gif biggrin.gif
I don't even know I have a bladder anymore. I feel nothing down there where the old bladder used to be. I get some phantom urgency but it lasts for an hour or two and then goes away this has only happened 2 times. I feel like a child in at an amusement park, that just won the BIGGEST stuffed toy that exists and one hand holding some nice pink cotton candy! Now, I tread very slowly as we speak because as you all know, anything can happen and anything is possible, so I am being very cautious about telling everyone that I am IC free becuase there's a part of me that fears it will come back and there's a part of me that thinks it still exists, and yes I am seeing a therapist for these feelings and my Husband sees her too.
But as far as the past 3 weeks, I have no urgency, no frequency, no pain, and no retention pain.........sometimes I forget to chatheterize myself because I have no feeling down there. My Husband keeps reminding me to do it. As far as cathing myself, I feel nothing. My doc promised me that he would cut the nerves to my urethra so I would never feel any pain down there again, and he was right. I don't feel the catheter going in and I don't feel it inside of my new bladder. In fact, I know I am in the right spot when I can't feel it going in.
I still have the regular old surgery pain but I am not taking pain meds for it. I am trying to just rest and let my body heal on it's own time. For some reason I don't metabolize pain meds correctly and they just don't work, not even for a head ache or back ache. It's wierd, I know..
The new bladder is great and I am happy about that but weary. I feel there is so much stress right now that I might screw the surgery up. But I keep going. Once Allen gets a job, I think I will feel much better all the way around physically and mentally because our health insurance is running through my old job and it runs out in 2-3 months. I can't wait for the chat rooms to be up and running. I miss you all!
Love,
Kara <img src="graemlins/lmao.gif" border="0" alt="[lmao]" /> cool.gif smile.gif biggrin.gif biggrin.gif