Leaving for a while

[waterflow]

Had an awful day. It started out with someone calling me fat again. Cried on my way to my Uro's and the nurse (I always talk to) wanted to talk to me like always but I didn't want to talk and just shook my head no. I knew if I said one word I would fall apart and I did. Ended up bawling my eyes out. Told her what happened and him. She said to keep taking the cymbalta but I told her I don't like to be fat again. I also told my Uro if he would call and tell my PH doc that I won't be going back and I won't bother with anymore blood work for the cholesterol. He said to wait utnil next week before doing that. Guess he thinks waiting a week I will change my mind but I won't. I read the replies to my other post and if I could have my choice between being model thin forever or pain free I would choose model thin. I'm sure I make no sense to any one and if I had my mind what all was posted would make sense to me but it doesn't. I have been called fat since grade school OR to thin. I'm not thinking right and I know it so that is why I have decided not to come around for a while. Not sure how long but at least until I get to feeling like a person again. I can't deal with me or others. Not that I don't care about any of you but I just can't say anything to help out. Beside my one cat doesn't want me on the computer anymore. I have to put her in another room otherwise she turns into a lap cat (which she has never been before) and she keeps pushing my hand away from the mouse. Guess I will concentrate on the cats. Sorry for being such a pain in the butt and thanks for all the help that was given.

[traceann]

Hey girl, take whatever time you need - you know we're always here!!!!:kissing::grouphug::kissing:

[ICNDonna]

It does sound like you might need a break from the forums. Just remember that we're here when you are ready to return.

Warm hugs,
Donna

[karen10]

Hey Mary -- so sorry to hear you're really struggling right now. I can feel the pain in your words. Of course I respect your need to take some time, but as a counselor, I also worry about you isolating yourself too much. We are here to listen, we care, we struggle too, we don't mind. So, don't worry about us. I would HIGHLY recommend that you seek out a counselor for a while. Sometimes when we're at a really low place, it helps to get another perspective and talk it all out, over and over again if need be. Hang in there! Believe that there will be better days!! Please feel free to PM me if you want to talk further! :)

[Babs RN]

I agree with everyone, and best wishes!

Hugs,
Barb:hi:

[gigisgirl]

I dont know you that well but just wanted to say we are here for you if you need us. I understand the depression stuff a great deal and I am starting a new plan with a new pain pysch dr hopefully very soon. We will be here when you want to come back and if you ever need to "talk" you can PM me for sure.
Jill

[SharonA]

Take all the time you need. We will be here.

[leelee88]

You will be missed, But we understand...Hope to see you back posting soon!

[dyno]

Everyone has to do it from time to time. Sometimes a day or two, sometimes longer. Take what time you need, we will be here.

[mary124]

Take care of yourself first. We will be here for you when you return. Hope you get to feel better soon.