very sad and depressed

[waterflow]

The cymbalta isn't helping any. Plus if I keep taking it my period won't stop but I am very very sad and depressed and don't feel like doing anything. yesterday I took one of th ekittens to be spayed and not sure if that started it. I really wanted to post about it because I was so worried but I keep posting about that stuff so didn't. They let me go back to see her this time instead of bringing her out to me like her mother. She looked so small and helpless laying there but they had her covered over with a blanket. Had to ask again for pain med. Must be I"m the only one who asks for it. got her home and she wasn't doing as good as her mother did when I brought her home. Her mother wanted food and water and walked fine where the kitten wouldn't eat a thing and was wobbly. then when I got up this morning and wnet out to check her I thought she was dead. She was laying in the middle of the cage (not on her blankets) laying on her side in a weird position. She didn't move at all when I went out until I got to the cage. She lifted her head and I could tell she was ina lot of pain. I ran back in the kitchen and got her pain medicine. Gave it to her. Then 1 hour later I hand fed her breakfast to her. by afternoon she was doing better but what a scare that was. My nerves are gone really and not sure if dealing with having her spayed and all is why I'm so depressed and sad. Now I have to do two kittens spayed next month. Then while I was at the vets waiting they brought in a cat thats stomach was bloated, it couldn't eat, drink or pee. they found out it swallowed a ball so did emergency surgery and then an elderly lady brought in her dog and it wasn't doing good. When the vet picked it up to carry it out back it cried in big pain all the way. I almost started crying. I've also given up on the no fat diet and diet thing all together. Tired of worrying about how much I weigh. I'm fat and that's it.
Sorry for complaining again.

[Kara29]

Waterflow,

You are a wonderful, caring, and strong woman to go through all of this. I am so sorry that you are feeling so depressed. I know when I am depressed, everything around me that is depressing just weighs in to my day. Can you try to focus on a positive thing for today, like the fact that you helped your Kitten come out of pain enough to eat a little?

How about talking with your Doctors and asking to try a new antidepressant.

My hear and prayers are with you that tomorrow you will have a brighter, happier day.

Kara:angel:

[SandyRN]

You simply MUST give your medications time to work. Don't give up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They just haven't had time to kick in, that's all. It's traumatic for you to spay the kitties, and just chalk it up to that. The cymbalta works in a cumulative way, meaning the more you take, and the longer you take it, the better it works. You have to give it time. So please don't give up on it. You've only been on 20mg 1, ok, 2 days. Please give it time. I'm sure your kitty was just reacting to the anesthesia and she's going to be fine by tomorrow. I know it's hard, but they do heal quickly.

Do not give up on your meds or you will never really know if they're going to work for you!

Sandy

[jaime15]

I hope your meds kick in soon. You really are doing what's best for your animals. I know when we took our rescue dog in for her surgery, she got sick from the anesthesia or car sick but I felt awful. And I would bet she doesn't even remember that day now. She's had too many treats in-between!
Just cuddle with them and make them feel loved and safe and they will love you forever.
Take care.....

[leelee88]

Mary, I have to agree with Sandy about the Cymbalta, It does take time for it to get in your system and for your body to get use to it. I hope you continue to take it.

Now about your Kitty, I am so sorry she had such a rough time with her surgery. I hope she is feeling better soon. She is SO lucky to have such a warm and caring owner. (((hugs)))

[tango]

Agree about needing to give the cymbalta a try for a significant amount of time before drawing conclusions about its effectiveness. antidepressants generally take a full four to six weeks to be effective, and if someone starts at a less than therapeautic dose and is built up to the therapeutic dose gradually, it will take longer.

[waterflow]

I took the 30 mgs of cymbalta this morning and tomorrow I will take the 20 mgs. Will keep doing that from now on and maybe some day I can stay on the 30 mgs. 30 is too much and 20 is way not enough. Was thinking last night too while laying in bed how I always put myself down. I never think of anything that I do that matters in the world. Of course I think since I’m put down so much and more so since the IC happened my brain is stuck on “I’m nothing” mode. Will start working on that starting today. Taking care of the 6 cats is an all day thing. Most mornings I don’t even get my hair brushed and cleaned up until 10:00 am or later.
The kitten is doing much better now. She ate a lot today. Bought the expensive special moist food for her (and the others) before she had the operation. Also found out why she wasn’t laying on her blankets. The top one must have been to rough or itchy for her so I put down one of the afghans I crocheted for them and she has been sleeping and laying on it ever since. I took her out of the cage last night and rocked her while standing up. She likes that and she was purring and we were snuggling nose to nose at times. All of them do the nose to nose thing with me now. So funny and cute. I did the same thing this morning with her and let her look out the picture window to see the birds while rocking her.
So, my goal is to keep taking the cymbalta, stop putting myself down and start enjoying life again and the cats/kittens.
Thanks for the kind words and help. They really mean so much to me.