bridgette7
01-12-2008, 06:21 PM
i have been so stressed out lately with work and school but i thought i was doing ok that is until my bladder decided to remind me it was still there...
its funny, sometimes i forget that i have IC, i mean i always have a dull pain...but then i get a flare up like this one that just takes my breath away and makes me want take a knife and stab my bladder...
and i swear if one more person asks me if i "still have that bladder thing" i'll scream!
i hate this...nobody understands what ic is or what i have to deal with...
the funny thing is, i'm reading the sypmtoms that other people have and though mine are similar they aren't exact...which sometimes makes me believe that do not in fact have ic...i'm in denial...
my symptoms usually consist of extreme burning and fatigue...frequency is there but i don't drink enough liquids to realize the full extent of it. and if i do have to go i try to hold it as long as i can...stupid i know but...i hate having to pee all the time!
oh and the best part about ic for me is that i think i have ibs now too, yeah! and to make matters worse, i can't see my doctor until february 14th!!!!!! i hate this...i hate not feeling well and i hate the burning and i hate ic...i hate not knowing what is going to trigger it too...whether its food or something else...AHHHH!
right now i'm trying to opt out of the meal plan at school because everytime i eat at the DC i get sick whether its a flare up or some other IBS related "thing"...and the director of student housing is being sooooooooooooo rude and doesn't understand how serious it is. i'm so tired of people belittling ic...and no matter how hard i tried to explain it to him, he wouldn't listen! everyone always thinks its no big deal, its just a bladder!!!!! UGH! i feel like suing the school for discrimination and undue stress...i'm seriously having one the worst flare ups of my life right now because of this crap...i wasted $1300 last semester after being forced to purchase a meal plan that i harldy ever used and i do NOT want to waste that much money again this semester!!!! why is it so difficult, why can't they just let me opt out!? i have provided them with all of the documentation that they have asked of me and its still not good enough!? i even had my dr who is a specialist write a letter to support me as well as register with the disability resource center...what more can i do!!
i hate my bladder...and i'm tired of feeling depressed all the time...ugh!
its funny, sometimes i forget that i have IC, i mean i always have a dull pain...but then i get a flare up like this one that just takes my breath away and makes me want take a knife and stab my bladder...
and i swear if one more person asks me if i "still have that bladder thing" i'll scream!
i hate this...nobody understands what ic is or what i have to deal with...
the funny thing is, i'm reading the sypmtoms that other people have and though mine are similar they aren't exact...which sometimes makes me believe that do not in fact have ic...i'm in denial...
my symptoms usually consist of extreme burning and fatigue...frequency is there but i don't drink enough liquids to realize the full extent of it. and if i do have to go i try to hold it as long as i can...stupid i know but...i hate having to pee all the time!
oh and the best part about ic for me is that i think i have ibs now too, yeah! and to make matters worse, i can't see my doctor until february 14th!!!!!! i hate this...i hate not feeling well and i hate the burning and i hate ic...i hate not knowing what is going to trigger it too...whether its food or something else...AHHHH!
right now i'm trying to opt out of the meal plan at school because everytime i eat at the DC i get sick whether its a flare up or some other IBS related "thing"...and the director of student housing is being sooooooooooooo rude and doesn't understand how serious it is. i'm so tired of people belittling ic...and no matter how hard i tried to explain it to him, he wouldn't listen! everyone always thinks its no big deal, its just a bladder!!!!! UGH! i feel like suing the school for discrimination and undue stress...i'm seriously having one the worst flare ups of my life right now because of this crap...i wasted $1300 last semester after being forced to purchase a meal plan that i harldy ever used and i do NOT want to waste that much money again this semester!!!! why is it so difficult, why can't they just let me opt out!? i have provided them with all of the documentation that they have asked of me and its still not good enough!? i even had my dr who is a specialist write a letter to support me as well as register with the disability resource center...what more can i do!!
i hate my bladder...and i'm tired of feeling depressed all the time...ugh!