Feeling depressed

[mimimama]

hi all,

i am feeling really down emotionally and can feel depression creeping in. I am not working right now and i think that has really hurt me because I am alone so much. the weather is very dreary and combine that with having pain and taking meds etc..i am feeling down and can really benefit from prayers.

i think alot of people get depressed around the holidays..i seem to every year.

my hubby and i are having some issues too. just when i think things are going good..the floor drops out from under me. I am sorry to be a downer again. I just know i need to reach out and i know so many of you understand.

[GriffsMommy]

I'm so sorry you're feeling depressed and having problems with hubby right around the holidays. I'm getting depressed because I'm having problems with my parents big time and don't think I'll have the family Christmas that I'm used to.
We're always here to listen when you need us. Let me know if there's anything I can do or if you need to talk. :grouphug:

[mimimama]

C~

You and I seem to be living paralell lives! I'm sorry things are tough for you too!

I admire you for working FT with everything you've been struggling with!

[GriffsMommy]

Yes we do seem to be living parallel lives! We are both having problems with our father, we are both having problems with our pudendal nerves.
Well thank you for admiring me for working full time but like today I have a 1:30 appointment an hour and a half away and I should have gone to work before leaving for the appointment but I woke up with my left hip and thigh hurting so much it hurt to walk so I called out for the whole day. I am listed as a full time employee but I don't work full time hours by any means. I can't wait for those couple of months of disability after the new year.
Like I said because we seem to be going through so much of the same stuff, you know I'm here if you need me.

[mimimama]

:grouphug::smile tee

you're sweet! I start PT next week and am afraid I will be in worse shape after.

i am so glad the PN blocks are helping!

[GriffsMommy]

PT really is not bad, I swear. If you're seeing a PT who knows what they are donig it's not bad at all. I'm going twice a week and when I first get there she puts these heating pads they have there on the table and I lay on top of them w/ a smaller one across my hips. She also puts the TENS unit on during this time. After that she does some "soft tissue work" which is PT talk for massage. She mostly works on my back since that hurts so much and is usually tight. She does try to work out any sore knots she finds but if I tell her it's too hard and she's hurting me she lets up right away. After that she has me do the bio feedback which is where you have a probe in and do kegels. I have heard that kegels should not be used for people who have PFD but it doesn't hurt so I'm giving it a shot. She told me my pelvic muscles have been so tight for so long they are weak so she is trying to strengthen them so they will support me better.
Wow, I just typed a lot about PT, lol, but I just wanted to reassure you. And boy do those PN blocks work. If your dr know how to do them I HIGHLY recommend them. I had such a wonderful reduction in my pain when he did the first one and my PT said my back was the most relaxed it had been since I started going to see her after my first block. I'm not going to lie, it does hurt while the block is being done but you go numb pretty fast. My dr told me women come back and ask for another block right after he did mine and I thought he was CRAZY because the pain of the actually block was fresh in my mind but after it wore off I wanted another one right away!

[SharonA]

(((Hugs)))

[Claredale]

Hugs to both or you! I wish I had words of wisdom other than I remember what it's like to be young, have young children and feel so lousy. I pray that things will get better. Just look at your beautiful children's faces and know that they think the world of you both! Mimi, I also know that when you are facing issues with your husband is so hard to deal with. I am so thankful that my husband always did the best he could. There were plenty of times that I wouldn't have blamed him if he would turn and run as fast as he could, I didn't even want to be around me much of the time, but no matter what I screamed at him or home much I felt sorry for myself, I knew that he was there for me even when I didn't want him to be. It's hard to explain, but I am sure many of you understand what I am saying. IC was such a main focus in my life, especially the first half when I was flaring and wanting my life to be normal. I really relied on my faith and my husband and we got through it. Certainly there were huge bumps from time to time. Mimi, I see in your signature that your husband is your inspiration. Keep letting him know that, maybe that will help with the bumps right now.

I am praying for both of you!

Hugs,
Tracey

[Plsgoawaypain]

hey mimimama--I have'nt talked to you in a while. I'm so sorry to hear about your very depressing situation. My prayers are with you. :angel: If you have seen my myspace you have probably figured out that I am also dealing with severe depression and anxiety. My husband lost both of his parents in the past few years and my parents won't speak to me and haven't since August. I haven't been invited to any Christmas events with my huge family. (there are atleast 50-60 people in my family) We all get together a Thanksgiving, a Christmas breakfast and then we all go to my great-great grandmother's the weekend of Christmas Eve. I called my Grandma to see why I had not been invited and she told me that she couldn't be in the same room with someone that can't speak to their parents. This hurt me sooooo bad.:( I was expecting her to invite me and move on, but I was rudely awakened that I am no longer welcome in my family. So me and my husband spent Thanksgiving alone. :( Now they have already had the Christmas breakfast and of course everyone was there but me. My cousin sent me the pics and did nothing but cry. My IC has done nothing but worsen since all of this. So since I saw I'm not the only one with such depression and anxiety it made not feel so alone. This has been the worse year for me and my husband. We both miss his parents and I don't have a family now. No kids. My tree is just now got half the ornaments on it. This is stuff I used to do in 1 day and decorate outside on another day. I've just hung a wreath on our front porch and this is completely not the person I was. This is also depressing the heck out of me.:rant::rant:I've not been the most polite person to be around the past few months and that of course is not helping with my relationship with my husband. As we speak he is aggravated about the whole situation and he seems depressed as I am. I can't believe there are other people out there with almost the same problems both physically, mentally and relationship wise. I thought I was so alone in this whole thing. :bow::bow:Thank God. I know I kind of ranted forever, but I had to vent somewhere. I hope things work out with you mimimama and the rest of you with depression problems. I've got to get to the bathroom now. Feeling nauseated.:toilet: Keep in touch. Please......:pray::grouphug:

[sandramac]

Sending you Hugs !
Sandra:cat::cat::cat:

[Tracie]

I am thinking and praying for all of you who are feeling down during this time of year. Hopefully things will look up for everyone.:angel:

[dverba]

I know when things are out of sinc with your husband all life of life is unhappy. My husband started taking Paxil last year and is so much better. He still has his moments when he fales to be there like I wish he was. They live the flip side to our chronic illness. A side we do not know. I wish you both peace.

[francis]

Hello,
I know how you feel, maybe it is the time of year?
Or maybe it's just knowing that the life we were used to having has now changed and we must adapt to all these new changes.
I am trying to be happy for the sake of my kids for the holidays.
This is hard when you are not feeling like yourself. I think sometimes we are so hard on ourselves. We as mothers expect ourselves to be perfect because we know so many people rely on us for everything! This alone causes stress. Not to mention the physical and mental pain we are in.
I do hope you feel better soon and know that I am thinking of you.

Francis

[kuntrygurl78]

Here there mimi! Hope this finds you having a better day!

Im coming to dekalb in May for a follow up doc apt with Dr. Burstein. Maybe I can drive over to Rockford while Im up north. I love road trips!

Hope things are better!

[LISA41]

what are u taking for pain ? i find myself more depressed when I stretch out the meds and do not take them .I have been super sick myself so sorry for your pain .