RAS6
11-19-2007, 06:55 PM
Many of you know my wonderful 96 year old great grandma is on her death bed. She has not been well or responsive since Friday. While my heart is still aching, I am so thankful for her and my wonderful family.
My older sister Jodi is my very best friend and I wanted to share this lovely blog she wrote. I hope this explains just how special so many people in my family are.
"? I am weak, but Thou art strong;
Jesus, keep me from all wrong;
I'll be satisfied as long
As I walk, let me walk close to Thee.
Refrain:
Just a closer walk with Thee,
Grant it, Jesus, is my plea,
Daily walking close to Thee,
Let it be, dear Lord, let it be.
Through this world of toil and snares,
If I falter, Lord, who cares?
Who with me my burden shares?
None but Thee, dear Lord, none but Thee.
When my feeble life is o'er,
Time for me will be no more;
Guide me gently, safely o'er
To Thy kingdom shore, to Thy shore. "
"** There is something oddly different and yet strangely comforting about watching and hearing my grandparents sing this song to my great grandma. She is dying.
She does not sing with them, she does not nod or smile. She does not say "thank you for singing to me". But I know she hears them.
I can think of no better way to pass over, than to feel that you are going to be walking even closer to Jesus. To be able to see Him. Face to face, hold his hand and feel the love He has in full!
The feeling I had while standing there, and the feeling I have now about the experience is indescribable. I know my grandparents aren't perfect, but I swear they are saints. Or maybe they were born with just the slightest nub of angel wings, starting to come in, on their backs.
My great grandma was no different. She was the most modern, open-minded senior citizen--or even person, in general-- I have ever met. She judged no one. She loved all, and when I say that I say it with full confidence. She told people she had only met once or twice she loved them, because they were people I loved. And that was all it took!
I hope to live and be just half the way she was.
I saw hope in the room that was shrouded by death. I realized yesterday what I thought I already believed to the fullest extent--that death is only the facade over true hope. True Paradise!
My great grandma is not the person I saw yesterday. That is her old and tired body, 96 years of wear and tear. She is a glowing glimmer of energy, a sparkling, smiling and even witty soul of ancient. She is waiting to return to that state. And I would not want to try to stop her or ask her not to do so. How selfish would I be, to ask her to stay here, on this earth, when her soul can be free?? Absolutely and fully. Free."
Jodi definately has the gift of writing. I hope you all can see just how special she is and my grandparents and great grandma as well.
Thanks for letting me share!!
:angel:
My older sister Jodi is my very best friend and I wanted to share this lovely blog she wrote. I hope this explains just how special so many people in my family are.
"? I am weak, but Thou art strong;
Jesus, keep me from all wrong;
I'll be satisfied as long
As I walk, let me walk close to Thee.
Refrain:
Just a closer walk with Thee,
Grant it, Jesus, is my plea,
Daily walking close to Thee,
Let it be, dear Lord, let it be.
Through this world of toil and snares,
If I falter, Lord, who cares?
Who with me my burden shares?
None but Thee, dear Lord, none but Thee.
When my feeble life is o'er,
Time for me will be no more;
Guide me gently, safely o'er
To Thy kingdom shore, to Thy shore. "
"** There is something oddly different and yet strangely comforting about watching and hearing my grandparents sing this song to my great grandma. She is dying.
She does not sing with them, she does not nod or smile. She does not say "thank you for singing to me". But I know she hears them.
I can think of no better way to pass over, than to feel that you are going to be walking even closer to Jesus. To be able to see Him. Face to face, hold his hand and feel the love He has in full!
The feeling I had while standing there, and the feeling I have now about the experience is indescribable. I know my grandparents aren't perfect, but I swear they are saints. Or maybe they were born with just the slightest nub of angel wings, starting to come in, on their backs.
My great grandma was no different. She was the most modern, open-minded senior citizen--or even person, in general-- I have ever met. She judged no one. She loved all, and when I say that I say it with full confidence. She told people she had only met once or twice she loved them, because they were people I loved. And that was all it took!
I hope to live and be just half the way she was.
I saw hope in the room that was shrouded by death. I realized yesterday what I thought I already believed to the fullest extent--that death is only the facade over true hope. True Paradise!
My great grandma is not the person I saw yesterday. That is her old and tired body, 96 years of wear and tear. She is a glowing glimmer of energy, a sparkling, smiling and even witty soul of ancient. She is waiting to return to that state. And I would not want to try to stop her or ask her not to do so. How selfish would I be, to ask her to stay here, on this earth, when her soul can be free?? Absolutely and fully. Free."
Jodi definately has the gift of writing. I hope you all can see just how special she is and my grandparents and great grandma as well.
Thanks for letting me share!!
:angel: