sirrahbed
10-07-2007, 10:17 PM
I have been doing this for an hour or so and took emergency Ativan. I am feeling beat on and mudcle like I have been kicked. I have had a few panic attacks before so was thinking this was panic? I am so shivery but now see I have a small fever 102 and my side hurts so must be a kidney infection now. !02 is not so high is it? Clinics are closed for Columbus day here at my base - thought of ER but what could they do - maybe antibiotics.
I hope this is not ptsd symptoms - those have been gone a few years now.
After 25 years of not even walking by the urology clinic - afraid to even see it and wonder if I would go - well primary doc got me a consult with urogyn but then they refuse to see me..cancel and said you need urology. urology called with a cancelation so I took it but I feel tricked somehow. So, I slept little for two days but went to that appointment and stayed calm so I feel pretty good about that.
On Tuesday I am supposed to go to the lab ua and culture...then see this doctor on Thursday for "history and physical" also up to preop. Cysto (what is a gross cystoscopy???and whatever checking he will do next Wednsday and agreed to do it in OR and give me conscious sedation. It is so hard to calm me and I can't tell you how afraid I am to have anything urologic done to me - I don't want to be seen as a whining patient though...practicing my being assertive but polite.
Well I need to drink and get through tmorrow then have the culture on Tuesday - oh I hope it shows infection because now with fever and chills - it must be? Panic does not make a fever right?
Please answer here I would so love to have someone to talk through these coming tests. I really feel awful with this fever :(
I hope this is not ptsd symptoms - those have been gone a few years now.
After 25 years of not even walking by the urology clinic - afraid to even see it and wonder if I would go - well primary doc got me a consult with urogyn but then they refuse to see me..cancel and said you need urology. urology called with a cancelation so I took it but I feel tricked somehow. So, I slept little for two days but went to that appointment and stayed calm so I feel pretty good about that.
On Tuesday I am supposed to go to the lab ua and culture...then see this doctor on Thursday for "history and physical" also up to preop. Cysto (what is a gross cystoscopy???and whatever checking he will do next Wednsday and agreed to do it in OR and give me conscious sedation. It is so hard to calm me and I can't tell you how afraid I am to have anything urologic done to me - I don't want to be seen as a whining patient though...practicing my being assertive but polite.
Well I need to drink and get through tmorrow then have the culture on Tuesday - oh I hope it shows infection because now with fever and chills - it must be? Panic does not make a fever right?
Please answer here I would so love to have someone to talk through these coming tests. I really feel awful with this fever :(