RAS6
05-08-2007, 08:47 AM
Hi all. I haven't posted in a while b/c of alot of rough stuff going on. And today I am really down. Actually, deflated is a better word! First of all, my husband was almost fired (and it was SO unfair!) But after talking to his boss and letting her know all the issues his store is having and how he feels little support from her, she apologized and let him know his job is not on the line now. Thank GOD! That was really scary! WE would have lost our insurance and possible our car and apartment.
A close friend of my parents passed away over the weekend and that was rough too. She was a sweet and caring woman and will be very missed.
My younger sister is not doing well (I posted about this under prayer requests) She has Borderline personality disorder (which many of you may have heard of) Basically it means she has terrible bouts of depression along with a hard time dealing with authority, having meaningful relationships, and in her case horrible self harming. She is now getting very aggresive towards others and it is so sad. Deep down she is a beautiful, loving girl and she has just lost all faith in herself. She is probably going to be sent to a different group homevery far away from us and I am still reeling from all of the drama from last week.
On top of this I am having horrible nightmares. I thought it was from taking too much Valium, but after I lowered my does they went away. But last night they were back and I was so anxious (and this is while on anti anxiety meds!) I may have to really look into what meds combined together may be causing these. I have been going to therapy and that helps, but can only afford one visit a month, so I just really needed to vent here. Today the pressure of being a mom, wife, sister, daughter, etc. is just getting to me. And having IC doesn't help!
Well, my Bri is going to be home soon and I am taking the girls outside. Hopefully the sunshine and 76 degrees will perk me up.
Thanks for listening!
I am SO pampering myself tonight! Hot Bath, pedicure, the whole nine yards!
A close friend of my parents passed away over the weekend and that was rough too. She was a sweet and caring woman and will be very missed.
My younger sister is not doing well (I posted about this under prayer requests) She has Borderline personality disorder (which many of you may have heard of) Basically it means she has terrible bouts of depression along with a hard time dealing with authority, having meaningful relationships, and in her case horrible self harming. She is now getting very aggresive towards others and it is so sad. Deep down she is a beautiful, loving girl and she has just lost all faith in herself. She is probably going to be sent to a different group homevery far away from us and I am still reeling from all of the drama from last week.
On top of this I am having horrible nightmares. I thought it was from taking too much Valium, but after I lowered my does they went away. But last night they were back and I was so anxious (and this is while on anti anxiety meds!) I may have to really look into what meds combined together may be causing these. I have been going to therapy and that helps, but can only afford one visit a month, so I just really needed to vent here. Today the pressure of being a mom, wife, sister, daughter, etc. is just getting to me. And having IC doesn't help!
Well, my Bri is going to be home soon and I am taking the girls outside. Hopefully the sunshine and 76 degrees will perk me up.
Thanks for listening!
I am SO pampering myself tonight! Hot Bath, pedicure, the whole nine yards!