meme
02-16-2007, 03:17 PM
Wow! So I was just sitting here reading some of my old journal writings, and I can't believe the low, scary place I was in just 6mos ago, or even scarier a year and a half ago. I really want everyone to know that you can't lose hope. Things will get better eventually. Life does not end because you have IC. The things I wrote were so full of angst and fustration, and worst of all I can't believe how many times I wrote that I was "just ready for this life to be over". I was in a REALLY bad place there for awhile, I thought that I would never get better, never have a life, and never have fun again. I still get kinda down when I'm having a bad flare and its keeping me from doing something, but not like I was before. I'm just so grateful that I found this site, and that I stuck with my uro and sought out every treatment I could. I spent a lot of appointments in her office crying b/c I just knew this next thing wasn't going to work, but finally one did, and I hope that it keeps working; but if it doesn't I hope that I never go back to that dark place, b/c they're coming out with new ideas and treatments all the time and I'm certain that one day there will be something out there that will help all of us. THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU ALL! You've all been the best counseling I could have ever hoped for. I hope that anyone who's experiencing those nasty feelings will come on here and talk with all of us, we've all had our bad days, but they do get better.