meme
12-21-2006, 11:38 AM
Proud of myself! Mike and I went shopping this past weekend to finish up x-mas and get him some cruise clothes. The mall was crazy busy. Stopped to eat lunch in the food court, it was packed b/c they were having a recital for little kids in there too, so we sat at a table for 6 b/c it was the only one left. Well, halfway through my dinner I look up and see my nemisis, Nena. Words cannot describe how I feel about this girl. You see, a couple of years ago she and Mike got REALLY close. How close? Not sure, don't want to know now, but it was close enough that I asked for a divorce, see where this is going? Anywho, she had her little boy with her and she was walking around the tables looking for a place to sit. Looked right at us and asked if she could share our table. I didn't even hesitate and told her to sit down. That took a lot. For a year straight this girl made my life hell. To even see her would make my stomach turn in knots and I would just get overcome with anger and hate. I had none of that when she sat with us. It was like it finally went away, all the icky feelings toward her. I think that I finally realized and I told Mike this too, that it wasn't her that I was really mad at, I mean I was, she knew better, but it was Mike who owed me more than to screw around and make me feel so terrible, besides it didn't end with her, there will always be some other girl. I had been diverting my anger onto her. It felt good to finally release all of that. I talked with her, no cold stares, no planning her death, just lunch. To make it better, she made an a## of herself by thumping her kid upside the head and calling him a retard over and over. Yeah, don't know what he saw in her, just not me I guess. I feel better now though. All my friends are so proud of me, and I'm proud of me too. Hating someone I think, reflects back on you, and I don't want to be a hateful person. Learned something, to let it go, better that way, all the people who have wronged me, and all of the people who have made me feel bad about my IC and who just don't understand, that's their issues. Someone can only make you feel bad if you let them. Merry Christmas! May you all find peace and love in your hearts.