didn't tell him

[waterflow]

I couldn't bring myself to talk to my doc today. There really is no pill that will help me through this. It probably doesn't make sense to anyone but I can't tell what it is. I will have to work through it on my own. May take a year or more but I made it through it before.

[ICNDonna]

One thing you could do is to write down what you are feeling and hand it to your doctor (or the nurse). If you are suffering from depression, you need help --- and there are pills that will help get through it. Depression is like any other physical illness --- you can't cure it without help any more than you can cure appendicitis.

Sending encouraging hugs,
Donna

[traceann]

Donna is right - you can't do it without help. And half the battle is how depression makes you feel - it can prevent you from taking that first step. I myself battled it, and I didn't realize it was the depression talking when I didn't want to get help, I too thought I could do it all on my own. Once I finally spoke to my doctor, and started treatment, I then saw how it the depression held me back and couldn't believe I didn't reach out for help sooner!!

Please give your doc a chance! The medications can help you help yourself to work through and overcome the feelings!!!!!!!!

[Claredale]

My doctor put me on Zoloft and I questioned it because I am a happy person and just upset about the IC. He told me to take it for a while and see how I feel. I have been on it for about 2 months and I can see a difference. It is making a little more easy to deal with the 24/7 pain and the lack of sleep.

My family would probably agree that I am doing better. I don't think I am as moody.

[tigger_gal]

great idea to write the doctor a note.. I had to face my own fears of talking to my doctor about depression, I just refused to admit it. I have been taking wellbutrin xl for 2 years. I am doing much better now.
Godd luck to you and O hope that you find someone to talk to about what is going on with you.

[waterflow]

I called my GP. Started shaking late yesterday afternoon. Will see him next week. When that starts it means my nerves have gone as far as they can. It happened years ago too when something happened. It seems stupid really since what is bothering me happened so long ago but it feels like I am reliving it. I'm sure you are all right with the depression making it hard for me to think. I feel like I'm not depressed just sad and tired. Are they the same? Thanks for helping me. I hope there is a pill or something that can help me get through this. :kiss:

[ihurttoo]

Dear Waterflow,

I am so happy to read that you called your Doctor to get some help. I know you dont think you are depressed, but tired and sad are definately symptoms of it. Everyone has a day or two, here and there where they are tired and sad, but when it goes beyond a few weeks, that is when it crosses over into something else....depression. You have seemed sad for way longer than a few weeks. Yes, they do have pills that can help with that. But, please remember that it will take a few weeks for the meds to get into your system, and for you to start feeling better, so dont give up if you dont see an immediate improvement.

I am so proud of you for taking this step! I know it is hard to ask for help, but you will be so glad that you did. Depression can affect you physcially as well as mentally....(the profound exhaustion is just one example). The hopelessness that accompanies the depression can keep you from seeking help or exploring all your options because you start thinking, "Nothing is ever going to help anyway!" I have definately been there and it is a bad place to be, because hope is all we have sometimes, so when we lose that too...well, that is when we are in REAL trouble!

Again, I am so proud of you for doing this. Please keep us posted on how you are doing. We want to be there for you and help you thru this!

Hugs,

Your friend,
Amy

[ICNDonna]

Being sad and tired are two symptoms that could be from depression. I urge you to talk with your doctor about how you are feeling.

:grouphug:
Donna

[traceann]

I am so glad to hear you are giving the doc a chance!! :) Way to go! Yeah, I agree with the rest - sad and tired are and can be prominent symptoms of depression. And as Amy said, if it goes beyond a few weeks - it could be less about situational (ie lack of sleep, loss, etc) and more about chemical.

And really the meds don't take away your problems (wow, now that would be great! ;) ), but they make it easier to cope and deal with things as they come. I have anxiety issues as well, and some crazy "fears" - like going to, oh say, Kmart or the grocery store by myself (I have no idea when these things started either, all came on gradually). So needless to say I always had to wait until someone wanted to go with me. But once I started on my med (I too take Wellbutrin, but the SR version), all of a sudden I was doing things by myself - my hubby was shocked! And in fact, just last night I went and wandered Kmart!!! :)

A big help for me when I brought it up to my doctor, about my anxieties etc was my moral support. My first appt, one of my very good friends went with me, as my "back up", lol. At that time we were waiting on some tests, so my doc said after that we would discuss it further. So, the second appt, I took my husband. He went in with me, it was much easier to blurt out my troubles, knowing someone was there to be my "witness" to my problems, etc.

It's a tough converstation to bring up, I was afraid my doctor would brush me off, but that was NOT the case, she listened compassionately and I am feeling loads better for taking the leap and bringing it up!!!

BIG HUGS!!!!!

[Trishann]

Waterflow,

I understand how the fear of what is going on and about speaking out, but don't let it stop you from getting help. You have been through so much and your body is reacting to it. You do need help to overcome this, and you have every right to think about yourself and get better. We all want this so much for you to get better. Sending you hugs and more hugs.

Hugs, Trishann

[waterflow]

Thanks everyone. It means so much to me that you care enough to help me get through this. I seem to feeling worse. Shaking is still happening but I get more tired and I woke up with a killer migrane. It just won't go away. I still think I'm not depressed. Just lost too much over the years and been through to much. I'm hoping doc can at least give me some hope of this going away with time. Thanks again everyone for helping me. You will never know how much it means. :grouphug: