seem sadder today

[waterflow]

It's a beautiful fall day but I woke up really sad this morning and not even knowing why. Just feel more lousy and tired and not up to doing anything. I seem to be going the other way instead of going up. maybe I will see what my Uro has to say when I see him this week. I doubt very much I will ever find something that will help. Just feel like my life has no purpose. Have nothing to look forward too. Same old thing everyday.

[armslee]

Water, honey are you taking any depression medications or getting any therapy? I know that you have been really struggling with things for a long time. Many of us go up and down each day but when we reach the point that we feel no meaning left in life, that is the point that you need to get some medical treatment!

Definetly talk to your doctor tomorrow!!!!! In fact, call them today and see if they have a cancellation. Your emotional health is AS IMPORTANT as your physical health and believe me, one controls the other!!!

I have fought these demons myself and they are ugly. Don't let them overtake you.

[Sunflower2]

Water. I do agree with Wendi. We all go through ups and downs in our lives. It's like our lives is a rollercoaster ride. I was talking to my PT about some days are better, and other days are totally the opposite. She was telling me how our mind and body are connected to each other. We cannot just look at one thing and ignore the other. When our emotional energey is very low, we sure can affect our physical energy as well. Please seek a medical help ASAP.
Don't give in an evil power :tsk:

[waterflow]

I've been taking the wellbutrin for almost 2 months now and it just dosen't seem to be doing anything. I have taken another one but can not remember what it was. My uro won't be in today. The problem is I never should have helped that person. Took so much for way to long and then to find out they didn't care about me. I'm sorry for going on with this .

[SharonA]

:kissing:

[Trishann]

I am really sorry you are going through all of this and having problems getting a breakthrough with it. I hope you find some professional help soon or someone you can talk too. I don't have answers for you but my thoughts and prayers are with you.

Hugs, Trishann

[armslee]

Water,
I am sorry that I'm not aware of your past situation but I can tell you that since being diagnosed with IC and cerv cancer again, I have lost ALOT of friends. Some of these people I really thought cared about me but obviously didn't and that can really hurt ALOT.

Your mind and body are sooooo connected that when one gets out of sync the other will too. You really do need to speak to your doctor. Maybe he or she can recommend a good counselor. I started seeing a counselor several months ago and have had some real significant improvement.

Also if one antidepressant isn't working for you, try another. I took Cymbalta for a long time but when my IC pain became unbearable and my depression got worse it did nothing for me so my doc switched me to Lexapro. Different drugs work better for different people. Praise God that we live in a place where we are offered such choices!!!
I will pray for you and your visit tomorrow. Please write down your real feelings about your life right now and your daily symptoms and take these to your visit tomorrow. I always make notes so that I don't forget anything while I am there. I often get very nervous and that "deer in the headlight" thing happens to me. Also it is really helpful to write down things your doctor speaks with you about so that you look them over later.

Water, only you can really make the changes in yourself. You want to feel better. You are talking to us about things and that means that you want things to change.
Talk to your doctor and your doctor can make the changes happen. They may be gradual but you WILL GET THERE!!!!:
pray:Hugs, blessings and warm wishes,

[waterflow]

Wendi, how are you feeling? It's awful your friends dumped you when you needed them the most but then I guess they really were not friends. You are right about mind and body. The more my mind is off the worse the IC seems.

Won't see doc until end of the week and not sure if I will say anything to him now. Just don't really see how a pill will help me get through this. Plus I have bothered him so many times. Don't want to start his day off with me complaining to him.