anniepie1976
08-08-2006, 06:53 AM
I'm wondering if there are any mothers out there like me. I was in many years of remission before getting pregnant. I'm baby is almost 11 months old. I was everything that the IC stats say opposite. I was in excruciating pain throughout the entire pregnancy. I had about a six month relief after having the baby (via c-section), now I am back to the constant pain again and nothing its working to treat it so far. This all started again when I got a mild UTI and put my bladder back into full flare even with the UTI treated and gone. I have tried so many things. My state right now makes it really hard just to raise this child. He is crawling now and just picking him up is agony. I don't know what to do! I'm not giving up on treatment...but I don't understand. I have had this for ten years and other than the pregnancy a flare never lasted this long! Somehow things would eventually improve. Is it possible that I made permanent damage to myself by getting pregnant in the first place? Could I never find relief again? How am I going to be active with my son when he gets older? I am so scared! And to top it off I never wanted to have an only child but after the horrible pregnancy and the fact I cannot seem to get better now to even be everything I want to be for him I cannot do this pregnancy again. I cannot even have sex anyways! My poor husband. It is agonizing! Is there a light at the end of this very dark tunnel? Is it ok to just have one? Even if I were to get better someday do I really want to risk years of this again? I have to think about the children. I need to be healthy as possible as a mom. Many tears over this whole thing. Ann