armslee
07-24-2006, 06:54 AM
I am beginning to loathe my job. It isn't the actual physical part of the job that is bad, but the resentment from the people here and the tension it is causing that I hate.
I get up every morning and countdown the days until I have to comeback to work fulltime. I am waiting for my doctor to make my pain clinic referral so that can maybe, possibly, actually be a possiblilty, that is...for me to come back to work full time.
Today I come in, and the office manager who I have always thought of as a workplace "friend" (and by the way, let me mention that she is married to my boss) had a complete and total meltdown on me this morning because she thinks that her stress headaches that she is having are because of me leaving work 2 hrs early each day.
Wha???
She is actually having to take Topamax now (1/3 of the dose I take, by the way) to help control her headaches. And as I tried to tell her that Topmax would probably help her she freaked about how she prided on never having to take medication.
Oh my!!!
At this point I wasn't sure what to even say to her. I tried to be sympathetic and when I tried to hug her I thought she was going to explode on me :confused: It was so bizarre!
So, on she rambled about how me leaving early right now kept her from being able to leave early and she knew that sounded selfish (:cussing: ) but she couldn't help but have resentment. And that my boss was having some health problems and that he was being fussed up with her because I wasn't here for his every beck and call.
At this point my mind just cracked open and I couldn't control my emotions anymore. I knew that I couldn't say what I really wanted to say so I just let the tears roll down my cheeks. She kept saying "when you are better, when you get better" and I looked at her and said, "this is the best it is going to be for me. I have to find ways to cope with it and if you need to find someone to replace me then just go ahead because this is really no fun for me".
I get up every morning and countdown the days until I have to comeback to work fulltime. I am waiting for my doctor to make my pain clinic referral so that can maybe, possibly, actually be a possiblilty, that is...for me to come back to work full time.
Today I come in, and the office manager who I have always thought of as a workplace "friend" (and by the way, let me mention that she is married to my boss) had a complete and total meltdown on me this morning because she thinks that her stress headaches that she is having are because of me leaving work 2 hrs early each day.
Wha???
She is actually having to take Topamax now (1/3 of the dose I take, by the way) to help control her headaches. And as I tried to tell her that Topmax would probably help her she freaked about how she prided on never having to take medication.
Oh my!!!
At this point I wasn't sure what to even say to her. I tried to be sympathetic and when I tried to hug her I thought she was going to explode on me :confused: It was so bizarre!
So, on she rambled about how me leaving early right now kept her from being able to leave early and she knew that sounded selfish (:cussing: ) but she couldn't help but have resentment. And that my boss was having some health problems and that he was being fussed up with her because I wasn't here for his every beck and call.
At this point my mind just cracked open and I couldn't control my emotions anymore. I knew that I couldn't say what I really wanted to say so I just let the tears roll down my cheeks. She kept saying "when you are better, when you get better" and I looked at her and said, "this is the best it is going to be for me. I have to find ways to cope with it and if you need to find someone to replace me then just go ahead because this is really no fun for me".