SandyRN
05-31-2006, 09:23 AM
I've been seriously absent from the board for about 6 weeks or so....I've done a lot of soul searching in this time, and I felt that I needed this time away from the board so that I could come on here with something good to say, and with the capacity to help others without writing constant novels about how bad my life sucks sometimes. So, I'm here now, and I think that I can make helpful contributions here without allowing myself to become sad and depressed.
I think that everyone needs a break every now and then, be it one or two days, or the dramatic month and a half that I just had. I didnt even check my email in all that time and just got done weeding through over 1000 messages.....lucky my ISP didn't cut off my account!!!
I'm having bladder problems more frequently again now, and am back to using the instills 5-6 times a week. My daughter (for those of you that remember) is getting the help she needs. Bad news, Tom has to have major surgery. He has Crohn's disease as well and after about 25 years of having the disease, his inflammation in a 36 inch stretch of his small intestine is almost completely blocked and his bowels have made their own path (a fistula) straight into his colon which makes his bathroom trips emergency trips. He wants his life back, and I want him to have his life back, but I'm TERRIFIED of such a major surgery. He's not in ill health, and it's not an emergency surgery, but I know just enough about med-surg patients to scare myself silly. The surgeon says it will definately be a big surgery and it's complicated by the fact that they're not sure how much of the large intestine is involved. When it rains it pours and sometimes I can't help but feel as if I'm being tested. :dizzy:
I worry that I won't be healthy enough myself to stand the stress, and worry, of this surgery, coupled with the fact that I'm going to be the primary caregiver when he's off work for 4-6 weeks. Ya know, living with a man can be wonderful, joyous, but not every single day in and day out for 6 weeks LOL! I've got to be healthy enough and have enough stamina to take care of him, the house, and my kids through all of this, and really need someone to tell me that I'll be ok.
I didnt come on to complain, just thought I'd let my friends out there know that I'm really ok, and whats going on in my life.
My son graduates from high school on the 12th of June and I'm quite melancholy about that too...my baby boy is no longer a baby.
If you've made it this far, thank you for reading.
I dont know if I'll be on every day, but I will do my best because I really do miss the companionship and friendship that so many of you have offered me. :angel:
Love, Sandy
I think that everyone needs a break every now and then, be it one or two days, or the dramatic month and a half that I just had. I didnt even check my email in all that time and just got done weeding through over 1000 messages.....lucky my ISP didn't cut off my account!!!
I'm having bladder problems more frequently again now, and am back to using the instills 5-6 times a week. My daughter (for those of you that remember) is getting the help she needs. Bad news, Tom has to have major surgery. He has Crohn's disease as well and after about 25 years of having the disease, his inflammation in a 36 inch stretch of his small intestine is almost completely blocked and his bowels have made their own path (a fistula) straight into his colon which makes his bathroom trips emergency trips. He wants his life back, and I want him to have his life back, but I'm TERRIFIED of such a major surgery. He's not in ill health, and it's not an emergency surgery, but I know just enough about med-surg patients to scare myself silly. The surgeon says it will definately be a big surgery and it's complicated by the fact that they're not sure how much of the large intestine is involved. When it rains it pours and sometimes I can't help but feel as if I'm being tested. :dizzy:
I worry that I won't be healthy enough myself to stand the stress, and worry, of this surgery, coupled with the fact that I'm going to be the primary caregiver when he's off work for 4-6 weeks. Ya know, living with a man can be wonderful, joyous, but not every single day in and day out for 6 weeks LOL! I've got to be healthy enough and have enough stamina to take care of him, the house, and my kids through all of this, and really need someone to tell me that I'll be ok.
I didnt come on to complain, just thought I'd let my friends out there know that I'm really ok, and whats going on in my life.
My son graduates from high school on the 12th of June and I'm quite melancholy about that too...my baby boy is no longer a baby.
If you've made it this far, thank you for reading.
I dont know if I'll be on every day, but I will do my best because I really do miss the companionship and friendship that so many of you have offered me. :angel:
Love, Sandy