I am NOT having fun.....help?

[breezespeak]

So.....every day I seem to get a new symptom. The frequency has changed fo the better and I"m learning that I can totally hold it in which is great (trying to be positive here) .

The ungoing everyday thing is the pressure (now it's really really low, feels like it's 'down there' or my perinium it makes me koo koo because it feels so wierd? (sp?), also clamping just to the left and right of my bladder, the lower backpain etc.

but please can someone help me with this:

Four or five times a day I get a flash of pain next to my bladder, usually on the left side. :headbang: I'll be talking to someone and I just FREEZE :ignore: because i'm scared about what might be happening to my body.

Here are the things that run thru my mind:

I am hemmoraging
I have cancer
I'm going to pass out
i'm going to die
What the hell is that
That doesnt' feel normal

What can I do to flow in and out of these attacks so it doesnt' disrupt my life too much? Does anyone else feel this insecurity about what is happening in their bodies as if it's going to kill them? I've been using atavan at night. Can someone tell me what is happening when you get that flash of pain? Is your body being damaged when that happens? I know i'm slightly neurotic. But this is all so new. I totally took my bladder for granted!

Thanks for any help you can give me.

[ICNDonna]

It sounds to me like you might be having some muscle spasms --- have you been evaluated for pelvic floor dysfunction (PFD)? If that's what's going on, physical therapy can be a huge help.

Warm hugs,
Donna