depressed and hurting while on vacation

[spickett4USA]

Hello to all of you. I haven't logged infor quite some time. I guess I thought I was tough but this past week has shown that I am not as tough as I thought.

I planned a week of vacation back in November for this month and it is finally here. I was so excited to just be able to sleep in every morning, not get dressed in uncomfortable clothing and just hang out at home sorting beads, working on puzzles, and playing with my cats and mice. How relaxing does that sound? Around the end of Feb. I started to hurt a lot more than I usually do. My pain mgmt. doctor put me on Avinza (morphine) several months ago and I was doing quite well. I'm also on Elmiron for about a year now (dr. plans on stopping that medicine this next week as the year is up) and of course, Prozac for the depression. The dr. put me on it when my I got these darned IC symptoms back and then a few months later my dad died suddenly. We thought it was temporary. So, now, after a few days of several over-the-counter remedies that just made my already nauseated stomach even more nauseated and bloated I finally gave up and went to my primary dr. to have my urine checked. It hurt to pee, which is usually not the case. I prayed for a bladder infection. I'm sure you all know what that means. And of course "well, your urine is quite healthy" came back. I just wanted to cry. She knows me so well and asked if I was still taking the Prozac. I trully think she fears I am very depressed. I tried to think of what I could have done that was out of the ordinary and the only thing I can think of is a small glass of white grape juice. I keep it in the fridge for a friend of mine that just loves it when we have out TV night once a week. Normally I can just ignore that it's in there. Has anyone ever had really bad bladder burning in the urethra from drinking a small glass of juice that lasted weeks? The primary dr. put me on Peridium (hope I spelled it right) until I see the Uro. next week. It does seem to be helping a bit. And this morning I decided to try the Prelief for a few days to see if that helps me tolerate food better. But no juice! I swear :)

Anyway, the worst put of it all is that I'm now on this much needed week off and don't feel like even sorting beads, let alone going anywhere. I'm so depressed. And so tired of being alone with all of this. None of my friends really understand it and my co-workers just think I'm sickly. They pretend to understand, but I know they really don't know what this feels like to me. And I have to drive about 30 miles round trip to take my 85 year old grandmother shopping today. She's my last living relative that I care about and I've been trying to see her as much as I can. I love her so much. We really are so very much alike. But she needs me so I can't lean on her.

Any ideas for coping with the sadness and pain? By the way, I had some Atarax left over from when I stopped taking it months ago after starting on the morphine (WAY too drowsy together) and so I decided to take one for a couple of nights. Wow! I felt so strange. Like really dizzy and I couldn't stay awake. I literally would wake up in the middle of the night just from the dizziness of rolling over. I decided those are NOT for me.

Thanks, Sherrie in Oregon

[ISONormal]

I drank some grape juice one time and was in really bad pain for days. This was early on. I've avoided fruit juices since then.

I know it's hard. Sometimes I just sleep too much out of depression or boredom. I can't seem to get interested in doing anything. But it sounds like you've got some fun things going on that you enjoy, but if you can't or don't want to do them right now, that's okay. Don't be too hard on yourself. I think vacations can place unnecessary stress on us. Think of it like this: now you have the time to do whatever you feel like at that moment. Don't feel like you have to do something in particular. Go do something to spoil yourself. Think what you would say to yourself if you were the perfect best friend. Then do that.

Enjoy!

[ICNDonna]

:grouphug:

Donna

[littlemyrn]

My doctor told me to try the grape juice, big mistake. I have been drinking Gerber baby pear juice. I water it down some with bottle water. You may want to try that. I know, drinking water all the time is so boring. Group hug.

[amber sevy]

:angel: :grouphug: It sounds like you need to take a break go do something for you.. I love to get my nails done or have my hair colored. My family know when I am really down cause I come home with a diffrent color of hair :loco: I hope you are feeling better soon. I don't know what to tall you about the juice all i can drink is water right now so I have not tried much except that. :grouphug:

[karen61]

Hi,
I know this is an old post but just in case someone else has this problem. Is it possible that you are sensitive to sulfites! I am very sensitive. They trigger migraines and bladder pain for me. White grape juice is often loaded with the stuff to keep it from discoloring.... Just a thought.