Kara29
02-28-2006, 03:52 AM
Here is a clip from an email I sent to a dear friend regarding bladder removal and not losing your beauty: Mind you all, on a daily basis I feel ugly but there was one night out of this year that I felt like a princess. I wanted to share this "great night" with you all to show you that there is still hope even in the worst of times.....
You must know that at my 10 year high school reunion this past Christmas, I felt like %$# b/c I had just finished those fertiltiy drugs but I dragged myself to go anway. Do you know, that out of my entire class which was 175 people. I won an award for being the most beautiful woman in the room that night. At 29 years old with a broken urethra and bladder neck, and running to the bathroom trying to cath myself every 20 minutes. No one knew a thing was wrong with me. I also won the award for the best dress out of the entire class. Mind you I was NOT POPULAR at all in high school. I had men coming up to me saying how absolutely stunning I was and how lucky Allen was to have such a beautiful wife. The girls were coming up to me asking where I got my dress and how I looked radient and how they wished they looked half as beautiful as I did. I tried to leave early b/c I was feeling so sick but they would not let us leave, they said I was too beautiful to leave and that they wanted me to party hard with them and have fun! I couldnt of course we told them we were just tired. I just want to let you know that even though you will have a tiny hole in your abdomen, that you can still be beautiful. No one needed to see my stomach that night and no one ever does.
I am not trying to be arrogant here. I am just letting you know that IC did not stop me that night and this was during Christmas just a few months ago. My scars went unseen and hidden but I was still the star of that show that night!
I am still sexy even though I have a tube hanging out of me. It also helps to have a husband tell me how sexy I am but my entire high school thought I was too, so you see, it didn't go away when they took out my bladder.
My scars are just evidence of how much of a fighter I am in life. They are worth somthing, not ugly. They are milestones for me. Allen kisses them and tells me how proud he is of me for going through so much. Not to mention, they are just about invisible now.
IC did not steal my Beauty!
Kara
You must know that at my 10 year high school reunion this past Christmas, I felt like %$# b/c I had just finished those fertiltiy drugs but I dragged myself to go anway. Do you know, that out of my entire class which was 175 people. I won an award for being the most beautiful woman in the room that night. At 29 years old with a broken urethra and bladder neck, and running to the bathroom trying to cath myself every 20 minutes. No one knew a thing was wrong with me. I also won the award for the best dress out of the entire class. Mind you I was NOT POPULAR at all in high school. I had men coming up to me saying how absolutely stunning I was and how lucky Allen was to have such a beautiful wife. The girls were coming up to me asking where I got my dress and how I looked radient and how they wished they looked half as beautiful as I did. I tried to leave early b/c I was feeling so sick but they would not let us leave, they said I was too beautiful to leave and that they wanted me to party hard with them and have fun! I couldnt of course we told them we were just tired. I just want to let you know that even though you will have a tiny hole in your abdomen, that you can still be beautiful. No one needed to see my stomach that night and no one ever does.
I am not trying to be arrogant here. I am just letting you know that IC did not stop me that night and this was during Christmas just a few months ago. My scars went unseen and hidden but I was still the star of that show that night!
I am still sexy even though I have a tube hanging out of me. It also helps to have a husband tell me how sexy I am but my entire high school thought I was too, so you see, it didn't go away when they took out my bladder.
My scars are just evidence of how much of a fighter I am in life. They are worth somthing, not ugly. They are milestones for me. Allen kisses them and tells me how proud he is of me for going through so much. Not to mention, they are just about invisible now.
IC did not steal my Beauty!
Kara