icnmgrjill
12-22-2005, 11:04 AM
Anyone who can get through the holidays without a tension headache or just general anxiety is someone I admire greatly. Consider my week, or example. Monday I was sitting pretty. My shopping was done and I'd finished all of my major holiday tasks for work and home. Tree finished. Presents wrapped. Thinking, cool, easy week for me. Right?? Wrong!
Tuesday a tooth starts to hurt. I run to the dentist where he does the "well, it's not a cavity ... it's probably cracked... let's give it a few weeks" speech. I, of course, feel somewhat crazy because, well, it really hurt when I bit on it during breakfast despite the fact that he can't find anything. So, we did a cleaning.
It's now Thursday and I've had my third trip to the dentist this week. Turns out that he accidentally pulled a filling from one wisdom tooth and discovered that another filling was missing on the opposite tooth. Decision #1 was whether to do them both at the same time.... because, well, to numb both sides would actually make it harder for me to swallow. Slept very poorly that night... bladder killing me... anxiety level sky high. I woke up ... and thought... "This is so much easier than a bladder cysto... keep it in perspective." But still my palms were sweating, my stomach in knots. We managed to do it all in two visits... thus making a grand total of 3 visits to my dentist in three days.
Gods... this is not what I wanted to happen before the christmas and I have to wonder if, yet again, this is my cosmic reminder to not take life for granted. For truly, dental work is nothing compared to having a bladder procedures. And, in terms of stress, I have nothing to complain about... particularly when ICN Kathi lost her husband this week... and my best friend Sheila... is facing her first christmas without her parents. I am so lucky... and so blessed.... and, dental work aside, I have to remember to always be grateful for what I have.
Yet... the holidays are... well... stressful. So, for everyone out there having a rough time... having disappointments, aggravations, snow, stresses and more.... I want to remind you that you are not alone! We are in this together! Breathe deep! Take time for yourself. Try not to be perfect because, perfection is just not possible. Treasure the smaller moments and laughter like, well, my father and I wasting two hours this afternoon tryiing to configure a wireless router.. only to have our ISP do it in, well, 10 seconds. ::::sigh:::
But, the best part is that my MAC works great on it... thus I can now work at home again. That said, it's the holidays and I, for one, am taking some time off to DESTRESS from the STRESS of the holidays!
I LOVE CHRISTMAS and I hope that you all have a great weekend... and for those who are struggling... always remember that you are not alone. We're here! We care!
Jill O.
If the above message is weird... blame it all on the novocaine!
Tuesday a tooth starts to hurt. I run to the dentist where he does the "well, it's not a cavity ... it's probably cracked... let's give it a few weeks" speech. I, of course, feel somewhat crazy because, well, it really hurt when I bit on it during breakfast despite the fact that he can't find anything. So, we did a cleaning.
It's now Thursday and I've had my third trip to the dentist this week. Turns out that he accidentally pulled a filling from one wisdom tooth and discovered that another filling was missing on the opposite tooth. Decision #1 was whether to do them both at the same time.... because, well, to numb both sides would actually make it harder for me to swallow. Slept very poorly that night... bladder killing me... anxiety level sky high. I woke up ... and thought... "This is so much easier than a bladder cysto... keep it in perspective." But still my palms were sweating, my stomach in knots. We managed to do it all in two visits... thus making a grand total of 3 visits to my dentist in three days.
Gods... this is not what I wanted to happen before the christmas and I have to wonder if, yet again, this is my cosmic reminder to not take life for granted. For truly, dental work is nothing compared to having a bladder procedures. And, in terms of stress, I have nothing to complain about... particularly when ICN Kathi lost her husband this week... and my best friend Sheila... is facing her first christmas without her parents. I am so lucky... and so blessed.... and, dental work aside, I have to remember to always be grateful for what I have.
Yet... the holidays are... well... stressful. So, for everyone out there having a rough time... having disappointments, aggravations, snow, stresses and more.... I want to remind you that you are not alone! We are in this together! Breathe deep! Take time for yourself. Try not to be perfect because, perfection is just not possible. Treasure the smaller moments and laughter like, well, my father and I wasting two hours this afternoon tryiing to configure a wireless router.. only to have our ISP do it in, well, 10 seconds. ::::sigh:::
But, the best part is that my MAC works great on it... thus I can now work at home again. That said, it's the holidays and I, for one, am taking some time off to DESTRESS from the STRESS of the holidays!
I LOVE CHRISTMAS and I hope that you all have a great weekend... and for those who are struggling... always remember that you are not alone. We're here! We care!
Jill O.
If the above message is weird... blame it all on the novocaine!