whats going on?

[Karen05]

For lack of knowing where else to post this, have you ever felt a real disconnection from the rest of the world? Where you just do not feel like yourself at all? Thats been me in the last two days. People talk to me, and it is like I am in completely another world. I don't know whats going on. It is the weirdest thing. I don't know how else to describe it, just like I don't have any energy to do anything, and feel very overwhelmed by so many different things. I just feel really disconnected from everything and everyone, and I don't know where it came from or why it is there.

I also have just been and seem to still be going through one the worst flares I have ever had. My bladder has been leaking lately, if I do not get to the toilet RIGHT as soon as I need to go, then it empties on its own and I have no control over it. Maybe thats part of the problem why I am feeling like this. I am only 27 years old, I better not be losing control of my bladder at this young age, cause if I am, thats not going to end well for me.

I keep wondering how much more I am going to have to deal with. I can't quite possibly figure out what I might have done to have to put up with all the stuff thats on my plate right now....

[Tina K]

I very much feel like that a lot of the time. I was like that a couple of days ago, kind of lost I think sometimes we get so very overwhelmed with all this and thinking like you are that we are just to young for this stuff (I am 31) and why is this happening, dealing with the pain and discomfort, and we can't do things we want all the time. It's very hard. I think our brain just says I am done and we kind of zone out for a little bit. Give yourself that time, we deserve it. Do something for yourself, rest if you can. Watch something funny that will make you laugh. Take it one day at a time, you didn't do anything to warrant what this entails and takes from us, know that and don't think about what is to come.

I hope you feel better, sending hugs your way!

[traceann]

LOL, I have to tell you I have felt the same way, thinking, "damn I must have been horrible in a previous life!" LOL, but now I prefer to think of it as a "learning" experience, ;) I have learned much about myself - that I am a lot stronger than I ever thought I was! And sometimes I think that in somehow someway, by going through having IC etc, I am somehow making it better for someone else...I went through it so I can help someone else at some point. My mom-in-law has that theory on her anti-depressent meds (for anxiety), she used to wonder why her, why did she have to take them etc, but then when it came time for to consider that route, she was a huge wealth of knowledge and was able to identify with everything I was feeling...So, she thinks that's why she's had to deal with it, so that at some point she could help me! LOL

Oh, and I have also noticed that when flaring, I leak too. Not any other time really, but when the bladder is in a mood...I think that happens to a lot of us!! :)

Hugs!!!!

[ICNDonna]

Please call your doctor today. It could easily be you are reacting to medications, but could also be many other things.

Donna

[emilyrose197377]

I hope you feel better soon. I agree call your dr. and tell him how you are feeling.

[Sarojini]

I have felt that way before; for me it turned out to be depression (from Bipolar Type II, the less severe form of the disease) and anxiety over many things, like being diagnosed with multiple chronic illnesses at once, a very terrible situation at my previous job, and some strain in my marriage that all of these other things were causing. Things have worked out for me now, with a doctor's help. I urge you to see your doctor about these symptoms -- you could be depressed, which is not uncommon in ICers, and there are many tools to help you get "out of the fog."

[Ginny]

It does sound like depression. I think a lot of people with chronic illness have some form of depression. Talk to your doctor about it.

I don't want to play doctor here but there is an antidepressent called cymbalta. It helps with incontinence and depression. Might be worth a try.

Ginny

[Karen05]

Thanks for the posts, and the words of advice.....I will take them into consdieration. I have just had the most horrible doctor experience I have EVER experienced, so I am a very upset person at the moment and don't feel coherant enough to be able to write anymore about it at this time

[traceann]

Oh gosh, I hate bad doc appts!! I can't say I blame ya for being upset, it's rather traumatic I think when you have one, ACK!!! Sorry you had to deal with it...

Hugs!;)