JenG
08-14-2005, 10:01 AM
I woke up this morning in the most pain I have had in a long time. I can't seem to find a reason for it. I'm wondering if it is weather related. It is finally getting cool here after a long heat wave.
Just pulling the morning paper out of it's plastic wrap made my hand throb like someone hit it with a hammer! My daughter touching me hurt so bad I had to tell her to get away from me. :shake:
My family went sailing this morning without me because it hurts to even take a step. I can't type that much longer because my fingers are aching at the moment. I also am getting that familiar cramping in my bladder -- it wants in on the party! :rolleyes:
Sometimes I feel like I am living life on the outside looking in. I get soooo tired so easily. I have spent this summer trying to lead a normal life and trying to keep up with everyone. I think it is all finally catching up with me! I know I need to take better care of myself and slow down - but I feel as if I'm missing out on everything. I don't want my kids to think of their childhood and remember all of the things mommy couldn't do because she had to rest. :mad:
To make matters worse, I've been waiting two months to see a rheumatolgist at UCLA and the morning of the visit last thursday, his office called to say he had to cancel the appointment! :headbang: My primary care and my HMO thinks all this IC and Fibro stuff is just me somatizing and doesn't do anything to help. :bonk: My gyn (that I pay for out of pocket) is great in treating my bladder, but he doesn't deal with the fibro so I feel I am out there on my own.
Sorry for the rant, but I just am having one of those days! Thanks for listening.
Just pulling the morning paper out of it's plastic wrap made my hand throb like someone hit it with a hammer! My daughter touching me hurt so bad I had to tell her to get away from me. :shake:
My family went sailing this morning without me because it hurts to even take a step. I can't type that much longer because my fingers are aching at the moment. I also am getting that familiar cramping in my bladder -- it wants in on the party! :rolleyes:
Sometimes I feel like I am living life on the outside looking in. I get soooo tired so easily. I have spent this summer trying to lead a normal life and trying to keep up with everyone. I think it is all finally catching up with me! I know I need to take better care of myself and slow down - but I feel as if I'm missing out on everything. I don't want my kids to think of their childhood and remember all of the things mommy couldn't do because she had to rest. :mad:
To make matters worse, I've been waiting two months to see a rheumatolgist at UCLA and the morning of the visit last thursday, his office called to say he had to cancel the appointment! :headbang: My primary care and my HMO thinks all this IC and Fibro stuff is just me somatizing and doesn't do anything to help. :bonk: My gyn (that I pay for out of pocket) is great in treating my bladder, but he doesn't deal with the fibro so I feel I am out there on my own.
Sorry for the rant, but I just am having one of those days! Thanks for listening.