periwinklelover
08-12-2005, 09:16 AM
I just wanted to share today that I thnk I am finally taking a step in the right direction to take care of myself. I have been plagued with anxiety for most of my life and I have also been plagued with being a people pleaser. I don't know how many times in my life I have done something that was destructive to me just to make someone else happy. So as of late, I have been looking for work and just being newly diagnosed with IC, I have finally realized I have to change my life style and how I see things. Thank-you IC. :headbang: The last job I had had absolutely crazy hours and I didn't have a life for 3 years. That was brutal and I think contributed in part to my IC. Anyway, to make a long story short I said no to a job with better pay but terrible hours again even though I need the money. I was having anxiety about it and am now experiencing a huge flare along with a bad case of heartburn because of having to come home at 1:00am on the subway and then try to get home the rest of the way by bus. I was freaking out. I live in Vancouver and this city is not the safeest. We have had lots of problems with people getting beat up/killed on our Skytrains (same as subway). So even though I felt bad about saying no, my anxiety just slipped away. And today I am going for an interview at a less streesful job with better hours. Wish me luck. :smile tee