Going to have FUN today

[SandyRN]

I'm going to Carowinds today with my 3 kids. It's an amusement park much like Six Flags, etc. I'm going to make myself get on the roller coasters, etc. I'm so afraid I'll not make it through this day but I took bladder meds, pain meds, etc with me so if I have pain I can take an extra pill.

I'm so looking forward to trying to be a normal mom. I sometimes mourn the person I used to be....so today, just for one day, I am going to go be me...and let loose and have fun.

Wish me luck, as inside I'm terrified! I havent been on a ride like that in years...but I used to love them...nothing used to scare me, now everything does.

I'll let ya know how the day went, if I can walk, talk, and type when I get back lol!

Thanks! Sandy :woohoo: :woohoo: :woohoo: :woohoo:

[SharonA]

I do hope you have a wonderful day. :dance: I am very proud of you. :bow: Even if I didn't have IC, it would take a miracle for me to get on one of those rides. I tried it once...that was enough for me. I am a big chicken...cluck,cluck. :lmao:

[ICNDonna]

Yikes! On a really good day, I'd still be scared stiff to get on a roller coaster!!! I'm one of those "sit and watch" people. I don't do high places --- it's a phobia with me.

Hope you have a great time.

Hugs,
Donna

[dancemomof2]

Have a great time, I'm the chicken with Donna watching from below.

[Prinny Joy]

That is so wonderful! I get afraid too! You have a great time and enjoy yourself! PEACE and JOY

[SandyRN]

Well, apparently I am with y'all on the sit and watch thing. I was SO disappointed. Since I was 6 years old I have been a huge fan of all things fast, sorta dangerous, things that sling ya around, etc....well I rode this ride I've ridden about 15 times in the past. First thing we got on, and its a roller coaster where your feet dangle, you go through 4 loops, twist and turn, and its FAST...I couldnt wait! Well, we went through one loop, and I was about to lose it. I was dizzy, I felt faint, and I thought my legs were gone because I couldnt feel them.

I didnt let on to my kids just yet because I was determined not to lose that part of me as I've lost so much of who I was. (NOT gonna cry)....So we got on a coaster you stand up on, that has this bicycle seat that moves up to fit, right against your crotch...well that was a mistake. I'm riding this thing next to my 10 year old, and he heard me screaming, not out of fun, but just totally scared out of my mind, and I literally peed my pants. Not bad, but enough that they're permanently stained orange from the pyridium I took before we left.

He kept telling me not to ride anymore rides, that he thought I was too scared...Ha, not ME. So we wait in this huge line for this unreal ride that you lay down on, you go backwards, laying down, you cant see anything, and after watching it while waiting in that line I was near panic when we got to get on it. I got on, then 2 seconds later, I got off.

I felt SO awful. I was terrified. If I could not handle the other two coasters I'd ridden on before how could I ride this thing that makes you feel like you're flying??? No way.

My little guy who's 10, who was telling me not to get on anything else anyway, stuck up for me after they got off....told everyone it was ok, that mommy was gonna have a panic attack if she rode it.

After a while I got them to ride the calmer coasters, the ones that dont turn you upside down, dont go very fast, and dont physically hurt sensitive parts of the body...I wound up having a good time, eventually...but I feel like just another fun part of me is gone.

I hate these diseases, I hate what they've done to my body, I hate the medicines that have messed up my equilibrium, and I hate not being the mommy I used to be.

Today I feel like I've been in a boxing ring getting the crud beat outta me...I can barely move, much less walk, and I'm sad.

The kids had fun, and thats what really matters the most, but I know they were thinking "where's my mom and what did you do with her you imposter!"

sniff :(

[SharonA]

I bet that's not what they were thinking.:shake: I bet they were thinking how great it is to have such a cool mom that she would take us to a place where we could have so much fun. :woohoo:

[mary124]

Well, just count me along with all the others who will be sitting out and watching. Have fun.

[SandyRN]

Thanks Sharon, I hope thats what they were thinking. Just worry sometimes that the fun, silly parts of me are gone.

Sandy

[traceann]

Holy cow Sandy, I just read this post and you are way braver than I am!! I like the tame roller-coasters, the kind that don't flip you at all, lol. I was a kid when I rode a coaster called the "Screamin' Demon" at Kings Island, and YIKES! All it was was one loop. You went through it forwards, then backwards. I couldn't walk when I got off!! I must have been about 12 or younger! It was horrible, never again for me and scary rides, lol. Although, I must admit I loved Space Mountain at Disney, terrified the whole time, but loved it. Not sure if I'd do it again.....

Nah, don't worry about losing your silliness, just find other ways to be silly!! Ask my hubby I surprise him all the time with my new ways to be silly...hmmmm, or maybe it's annoying, not sure which!! LMAO!!!!!!!Chin up girlie!!!!

Hugs,
Tracey :)