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garden girl
07-28-2005, 01:47 PM
I hope that sharing some of my experience will help others to see that IC does not have to be the end of the world, even if it may seem that way at first. I have been so scared and depressed at times, but I found the inner strength to get the help that I need and I have been improving gradually ever since! :)

I want to share what I couldn’t (or just didn’t) read when I started on my journey a year and a half ago – people diagnosed with IC do improve! It takes time and some trial and error, but you can get better.

Like a lot of the stories I have read here, I had to travel a long and exhausting road to get my diagnosis. It all started a year and a half ago with a severe culture-positive bladder infection that did not seem to respond to antibiotics (I was given Macrobid for 10 days because we had been trying to get pregnant. The other time I was given Macrobid, it did nothing, too, but I was able to take Bactrim three days later – and then the infection was gone). I felt a little better after taking the old reliable Bactrim.

A month later, my husband and I had sex and it was so uncomfortable. It really scared me! I went back to the doctor and after a round of Cipro, she gave me Detrol LA and eventually sent me to a urologist. She told me that she suspected IC, which terrified me, because by that time, I had been to this site and others and read horror stories of lives ruined forever by IC. When I got to the urologist, I told him that my worst fear was that I had IC. He shook his head and said (without examining me yet, mind you), “You don’t have IC. If you did, you’d be up at night going to the bathroom and you would have bladder pain.” Since I hadn’t experienced either of those (my only symptom at the time was frequency and I could sleep through the night, no problem) and he was confident that my bladder was simply irritated after my infection and would get better, I left feeling pretty good.

Of course, that did not last! :mad: As my frequency continued and I spent my days searching the internet for something, anything that would tell me what was happening to me, I fell into a depression. I cried all day sometimes and wondered how I could go on. But somehow I managed to live a pretty normal life on the outside.

Eventually, the Detrol LA kicked in and my frequency was gone! (It took a good two to three months for it to work.) After a few celibate months, my husband and I attempted intercourse. It was painful for me because my muscles were so tight after all the clenching they had been doing. With each subsequent attempt, it felt better, though. Things were looking up. :)

Then, I had a burning sensation after going to the bathroom that would last for hours sometimes. I went to the urologist to have a urine culture done. It was negative. Eventually, the pain went away. Then it came back the next month and went away within a week. I started to notice the cyclical pattern and went to the gynecologist. After a few gynos and lots of unnecessary yeast treatments, which I know made things worse, my last OB/GYN suggested that I go to a pelvic pain specialist.

I found one at UCLA who has been excellent (she’s one of the leading experts in pelvic pain treatment). I asked for a referral to another urologist for a second opinion and she gave me the number of one in Santa Monica, who has also been wonderful. He sees many patients with IC, which I think helps him to recognize it more easily. I had been keeping good notes about my symptoms and what I had tried so far. I handed him a copy and immediately after he had read it, he was able to tell that I had IC. I cried right there because it was not what I had wanted to hear! I was devastated! My worst fear had come true! :(

I was given the potassium sensitivity test, which didn’t really bother me except for making my urethra hurt for days afterwards (probably because the nurse giving it jammed the catheter in without much notice, instead of being gentle like the doctor himself had been previously when taking a urine sample). However, based on my symptoms and my mild reaction, he was able to make the diagnosis. My pain symptoms have mainly been urethral sensitivity and vaginal burning. He told me that I have chronic urethritis, but that is a form of IC.

My pelvic pain gynecologist diagnosed pudendal neuropathy and for a while she didn’t agree with my urologist. I think she is coming around now that she has seen a letter I had to hand carry to her from him (they keep losing my chart at her office! :hmm: ). I guess these things overlap.

I’m now at six months with the Elmiron and it has been helping me very gradually. In fact, I think all of the meds and treatments together have been helping gradually. I tried weaning myself off the Detrol, but after two days without it, I was in such discomfort, I was in tears. I guess it was the spasms coming back. I went back on it and decided not to change any meds until my one year on them is over. At that time, we hope to start trying again for a baby. I’ve been reading the pregnancy boards with great interest because I want to know what I can and can’t do/take during a pregnancy. It has been such a comfort to me to see that women who have IC can and do have babies! (My urologist is all for his patients getting pregnant. He said that most of them feel good while pregnant and he thinks it is also very healing to the bladder and body, in general.)

Even though I have been doing better, my hormones continue to play a big role in how I feel (I always flare up after ovulation and feel great during my period). I also believe that stopping the pill to try to get pregnant may have left me susceptible to IC since the infection happened six months after stopping it. Every month I have the pain flare-ups – now that the Elmiron and others meds are working – they are down to three days from ten. I hope to continue to see improvement.

What has helped me:

Above all, prayer and wise counsel from my husband and a close friend who have helped me to see that God is in control and everything will be OK one way or another. God has brought me through a lot in my life so far and with each challenge comes a new chance to grow and develop my character. Each challenge is harder – I’m afraid to see what’s next! :) Nothing touches you that does not go through God’s hand first. I have found a lot of inner peace lately that is a direct answer to prayer. It has helped me to face what is happening and admit that I have IC.

Experience. Now that things are more under control, I know that when I have a flare up, it will not last long. I remember that things will return to a more pain-free state in time. My thoughts used to run away with me – my emotions were so attached to how I felt physically that at the hint of a flare-up, I would freak out!

Taking control of my healthcare, no matter how afraid I felt. I want to tell people: listen to your gut and find a doctor who will listen to you. Easier said than done, especially with IC, a problem that gets easier to diagnose the longer it goes on and more symptoms come to bear. I think I knew in my heart that I had IC when my PCP suggested it a year before my diagnosis, but because my first urologist told me I didn’t have it, my treatment was delayed because I chose not to look at the red flags surrounding him.

My meds: Elmiron, Atarax, Detrol LA and Neurontin.

My diet. This took awhile because when I wasn’t feeling as good as I am now, I would eat things on the “bad” list and not think they affected me since I was already feeling bad. As I’ve felt better, it is easier to distinguish symptoms related to eating the “wrong” foods. I’m still playing with my diet, though, and I find that some times of the month I can eat “bad” foods and be fine, while at other times of the month, the foods affect me.

Pelvic floor physical therapy – but only the kind that addresses my multiple trigger points. I had six months of PT previously that did not help me nearly as much as one session with my new PT. With the last one I did biofeedback (Glazer’s protocol), perineal massage and ultrasound. With the new one, I do internal massage as well as external trigger point therapy and stretching. I had no idea how much my abdomen and back (not just the lower back) are involved! She taught my husband how to do the internal trigger point massage, so now we do this at home a couple nights a week.

Acupuncture/trigger point injections/acupressure. I go to the UCLA East-West Medicine Center, which has doctors trained in both western and eastern medicine. I have gotten a lot of temporary relief from my treatments. I’m hoping to see longer-lasting results, eventually.

Counseling with a women’s health psychologist. I just finished nine months of therapy with her today! She said I had come a long way and agreed with me that it was time to at least take a break. I don’t plan to go back for another six months, if at all (I’ll be attempting to cut back on my meds to try to get pregnant in about six months). For now, I am content to relax and continue to let my treatments work! (I guess stopping therapy with her was a catalyst to come find support here when I need it!)

I’m sorry that this post is so long – I’ve never done anything like this before and to be honest, I was a little afraid to introduce myself. It’s easier to stay in the shadows and observe. But I hope that maybe someone who reads this will be helped by my experience.

D

windwalker
07-28-2005, 02:13 PM
Let me start by saying Hi and Welcome :) Thanks for sharing w/us and I hope you get some useful info here. Everyone's very supportive too, dont hesitate on asking anything. :)

vm
07-28-2005, 03:00 PM
:welcome: Wow, I felt like I was reading a post written by me! :lmao: All the details aren't the same, but many are. You'll have to read my story sometime - the link is below. It's outdated by a couple of years - I am doing even better and can eat anything I want now....

I hope things continue to get better and better for you! I, too, have tried to stop the Detrol several times over the past 4 years and I flare every single time. I'm done trying to go off of it. ;)

curlycue
07-28-2005, 06:13 PM
Welcome Garden Girl,
I wish you the best of luck, you are very young and in no time you will be with child. I had a baby in 1999 and it was the best time ever, I did not have any symptoms? I could not understand it but I was so happy, for a minute there I thought well mabey I can be prego all my life and live pain free? Yea right. Good Luck

mayray518
07-29-2005, 08:56 AM
Very good post. Glad that you have a good support network. You will find something that will work for you and we are all here for moral support. Glad you didnt get told that you were at the same job for too long or that you were freaking out because your biological clock was ticking (as I did). I almost clocked a few uros back then. Anyway you have come to an excellent site for info.

Sarojini
07-29-2005, 09:13 AM
:welcome: and thank you for sharing your story! It is very inspiring and it's great for others, especially those who are new and frightened, to hear that IC is NOT the end of the world! I too have my IC under pretty good control now (although it requires medication and watching what I eat/do a bit) -- I'm able to work full time as a research fellow working my way up to Assistant Professor at a major medical school, and hubby and I have a pretty active sex life once again.

I'm so glad you shared your story with us :)

BTW, I used to live in Los Angeles -- I did my Ph.D. work in the UCLA School of Medicine :)

emilyrose197377
07-29-2005, 10:15 AM
Hello, :welcome: to the ICN. You will find a lot of info about ic and support from other members also.

Kim

classics
07-29-2005, 10:45 AM
That was a wonderful, informative post. Welcome to the network! I also found some similarities in symptoms. I.C. is so strange and for what some don't have in symptoms, others do. That's why it is hard for the doctors to accurately diagnose it. I'm sure there would be some doctors who would tell me I don't have it and it's all hormonal related.

I'm having a terrible week. I really should go to the vent section! :headbang: :toilet:

Babs RN
07-29-2005, 01:02 PM
Welcome, that was an awesome post. I have just been referred to UCLA so I would be interested to hear your experiences. Back to your post--how absolutely eloquent!!! :)

Hugs,
Barb :grouphug:

kelly McC
07-29-2005, 02:25 PM
Hello and welcome
couldn't have said it better myself almost a year and half being diagnosed things are so much better for me. More than I could have begun to imagine 2 even 4 years ago. Faith and hope combined with my determination and a whole of support from the ICN my family and friends I now have a great team of expert doctors and fealing much like my ole self... Just a little older but much wiser thanks so much for sharing your story
Kelly

csocain
07-29-2005, 03:08 PM
What a great post! Sure glad you came out of the shadows to share it with all of us. I know we were all blessed by it. Indeed God is in control and will walk you through anything that comes your way. Thanks for the reminder. Will be praying that you continue your recovery and that the Lord blesses you with a beautiful baby soon. What a wonderful gift that would be! Blessings to you and yours. Hope to hear from you again soon.

garden girl
07-29-2005, 03:33 PM
Wow! I feel so welcome – thank you all! I’m glad now that I didn’t let my fear of posting get the better of me. Your encouragement made it well worth it.

It’s comforting to know that my story (so far) is not that unusual and that others have had similar symptoms and experiences. Thank you for letting me know that. I’m really happy to hear that others are doing much better now, too!

Ruth: Thanks for the baby encouragement! I just turned 33, so it’s nice to hear that someone thinks that I am still very young. :) I feel like my IC experience has been much harder for me to deal with because we were trying for a baby when it all started. It was hard to be sidetracked like that – and be surrounded with friends with babies, most going on their second ones! I know things will be different for me now if I’m blessed enough to get pregnant, but I also know that my husband and I will appreciate the gift of a child so much more because of our struggles. I’m getting excited now to try again in six months or so!

Mayray: I understand what you mean about unsympathetic doctors! I’m sorry you had to deal with some of them, too. I didn’t feel quite right about my old urologist, but made myself give him a chance even though he said things like, “A little discomfort wouldn’t stop me from enjoying a meal or having sex. Do what feels good” and “I don’t think you should have physical therapy because they make you do exercises a few times a day so you have to think about how you feel. Try not to think about it and live your life.” The more he said these types of things, the more I thought, “He has no idea what I’m dealing with!” :loco:

Jen: Nothing beats UCLA in this area for excellent medical care, in my opinion. I’m glad you were able to do your Ph.D. work there. My husband and I are just getting back to a more normal sex life, too. What a difference that makes in our relationship! ;)

Barb: I would love to talk to you more about my experiences with UCLA. Feel free to send me a private message. I hope you find what you need there.

Carolyn: Thanks so much for the prayers. I think we all need them – now I will be adding all of you to my prayer list!

Thanks again, everyone! It has truly been a blessing to me to receive such a warm welcome.

Denise