dragonfly7412
01-17-2005, 10:31 AM
Hello all here on the IC network.
I just wanted to thank you all so much for posting and starting this website. I found it last week when I was just at the end of my rope (mostly frustration, anger and confusion). After reading all of your stories I felt like I had finally, finally found voices I could hear and understand. My story is still on the share your story page, and I cannot thank you enough for accepting me and sharing with me.
I am by no means "cured" from the depression I felt from not being believed, uncertainty about what was happening to my body, but I have found myself feeling lifted higher and higher every day.
One thing I have learned, that came to me 2 nights ago in the place between awake and sleep is the following :
I think the body and mind, when in crisis, almost seperate and become 2 independent entities. When the mind feels spent and tired, like it can't take anymore, the body just refuses and somehow you just keep going. In this way I feel as though even when the body is ill, it still is consumed by the most basic human instinct which is survival. Just like when your blood rushes from your extremities to support your heart, it ignores your mind telling it to give up and stop fighting. This past week felt like an awakening and a call to listen to my body, that it is not ready to give up yet, and neither am I.
This has all come thanks to reading these boards and watching the love and support towards eachother, sometimes when I read your stories I feel an ache of humanity and helplessness, I wish I could do somthing. I wish no-one ever felt this way, Thank you so much for sharing with eachother and helping me realize, for me this is not the end of the world. I know this all sounds a little dramatic, but I sincerely mean it. I cannot thank you all enough, I will be forever grateful!
Caroline
I just wanted to thank you all so much for posting and starting this website. I found it last week when I was just at the end of my rope (mostly frustration, anger and confusion). After reading all of your stories I felt like I had finally, finally found voices I could hear and understand. My story is still on the share your story page, and I cannot thank you enough for accepting me and sharing with me.
I am by no means "cured" from the depression I felt from not being believed, uncertainty about what was happening to my body, but I have found myself feeling lifted higher and higher every day.
One thing I have learned, that came to me 2 nights ago in the place between awake and sleep is the following :
I think the body and mind, when in crisis, almost seperate and become 2 independent entities. When the mind feels spent and tired, like it can't take anymore, the body just refuses and somehow you just keep going. In this way I feel as though even when the body is ill, it still is consumed by the most basic human instinct which is survival. Just like when your blood rushes from your extremities to support your heart, it ignores your mind telling it to give up and stop fighting. This past week felt like an awakening and a call to listen to my body, that it is not ready to give up yet, and neither am I.
This has all come thanks to reading these boards and watching the love and support towards eachother, sometimes when I read your stories I feel an ache of humanity and helplessness, I wish I could do somthing. I wish no-one ever felt this way, Thank you so much for sharing with eachother and helping me realize, for me this is not the end of the world. I know this all sounds a little dramatic, but I sincerely mean it. I cannot thank you all enough, I will be forever grateful!
Caroline