Depression is coming I feel it.

[Dixiefireball]

Dec. 19 is the anv. date of my mothers death I'm trying to keep busy i feel better when i'm busy I can't slow down if i do depression will take over i go threw this every year i have since 1988. I miss my mom so much.
it really hit me today when i put the tree up me and my mom use to do it every year together.
This year me and my daughter put it up together. which was nice to have Courtney to help me.
i felt a flare coming on and i took my medicine and klonopin i think that is going to take care of the flare.
I don't want to go back on antidepession medicine.
Loseing a parent is the hardest thing i ever had to deal with.
i see depression has already gotten a hold on my dad this year.
When we was over to see mom's grave I notice how bad her marker looks my husband said when he got his promonton (sp?) in jan or when taxes come in it will cost 200.00 to have it redone i think that will make me feel better to have her marker looking better.
Thanks for listening.
sending you all my love.
Rhonda

[desolationangel]

:grouphug:

Wish I could offer more.

[daydreamer]

Sending hugs...I'm the same way with the anniversary of my dad. My daughter was crying tonight that she was sad she never got to meet him. Sigh...

I find it helps to keep them in my thoughts but to think of happy things they would love.

[andcohen]

Rohnda,
No words I can say will help you feel any better during this time. I am still lucky enough to have both of my parents with me, but know when the day comes & I loose one of them it will be the hardest thing to endure.
You are such a wonderful support & friend to so many people here, I am sure they will all be with me when I send you a big hug & let you know I am thinking of you.
Andrea :grouphug: :grouphug:

[ICNDonna]

I miss my mother and father a lot, sometimes more than others. What helps me get over the hump is to talk about them --- to remember some of the fun, silly things they did, and sometimes just talking to someone really helps. I also say a prayer of thanks that they were, and are, a part of my life.

Sending gentle hugs,
Donna

[dyno]

Rhonda, it is hard isn't it. I have several family members I miss a lot. There are just times when it really hits you, and anniversary times are one of them. Hang in there, we all understand.

[work it]

:grouphug: Not only do I find it hard not being around a loved one, but I think since it is also around the holidays it hurts also. I just try to remember all the fun talks and I know that I have an extra angel looking down helping me get through.

Being depressed is never fun, if you need to chat I am here for you.

[Raven2wolf]

rhonda i'm sorry you are feeling this way i didn't know why didn't you tell me. If you want to talk you know im just a hop skip and jump away from you.

[Lyn40]

Rhonda,
My heart goes out to you. I can't imagine the pain of losing a parent. And holidays are especially tough when remembering loved ones. I do hope you find joy in sharing all the special memories with your own children.