angry

[desolationangel]

i feel really bad right now for depriving my bf of sex... he's not demanding it or anything, but i can't help but know he misses it.

the cruel irony of it is, we used to be sex fiends (something which i believe indirectly caused my IC). i miss that part of myself. i miss feeling that connection with the person i love more than life itself.

i miss being a normal 20-year-old. :cussing:

i've stopped being sad and started being mad, but i don't know who it is i'm so angry with. god maybe?

it just isn't fair.

[vm]

Anger is certainly a part of the grieving process. I think it is great that you are honest about it with yourself and are finding ways to vent about it. I think it is perfectly normal to be mad about losing something you once had. The trick is to not get stuck in it and to find healthy ways to let it out. Writing sure is a great start - it helps me a lot when I am mad to write and write and write about it.

I hope you are using some things besides intercourse to have that sexual connection with him. I don't know how you feel about oral sex, but that is one way to give and get pleasure that doesn't typically cause a flare.

Keep in mind, too, that when you get started with some treatments, particularly ones that help you feel better, you may get that sex life right back. My husband and I have a good sex life now! :) Keep that hope.